Val's Realm

Fushigi Yuugi (Mysterious Play)

2006-11-07T16:37:00.000+08:00

Everyone who knows me would by now understand my insanity for cartoons/anime. Of all the cartoons/anime i've watched.. there's one that was, is and will forever be my favourite of all. Fushigi Yuugi. I first watched this anime some time in the end of 2001. It was shown on AXN, every evening at 7 pm, and repetition at 11 am the next morning. And i watched it everyday (the actual show AND the repetition.it's a must.)Until i had to leave for KML sometime in March. That left me really devastated coz duh.. i was already "glued" to the anime, and it was somewhere around the climax-resolution part of the plot that i had to leave it for.. something that wasnt productive AT ALL.(yes, i HATEd KML.every. single. day i spent there. the only thing that i valued was my MEMORY n EXPERIENCE of being there..errr.anyways, this post isnt about KML. it's about my one and only favourite anime, Fushigi Yuugi.)

What is Fushigi Yuugi about? It's about Friendship. Love. It's about sacrifice. About the painful truth of life that we have to accept and deal with. It's about growing matured, never giving up our hope in something that we believe in.. :) It's..everything. I cant quite tell the whole story right here.. coz it'll take too much time (and space).. he2.. but here's a gist of the anime that i can share with you readers..

Miaka and Yui are best friends, living in our modern world. One day, they went into the "reserved documents" room in the library and found a book called "Universe of the Four Gods". The book, in which the setting's made in Ancient China, started with the phrase.. "..This is the story of a girl whose wish came true..." and Miaka and Yui were absorbed into the book itself, and experienced a life-turning journey and adventure. How can two good friends end up being enemies?

How can a girl from our world fall in love with a character from a book?

How can a typical 15 year old girl grow and change from a selfish person into everyone's loved one?

:D The next time we meet, and have a chat.. i wouldnt mind watching the anime (for the 100th time?) with you. *wink*

The best anime.. of any time.. Fushigi Yuugi. Eheh~! *wink*

Happy 25th Birthday to My Syl!!!!

2006-11-04T13:16:00.000+08:00

He2.. today's 4th Nov..my sayang's 25th birthday! muahz..! love you so much syl.. May God bless you in all your future undertakings baby..

Check this out:

he2.. not gonna say anything further.. let the mystery remains..kekekee.. ok cayang? muahh!! love you sooo much syl! see u soon baby! eheh! :*:*:*

Cobalah Untuk Setia.. by Krisdayanti

2006-10-16T16:59:00.000+08:00

Hmm..i know this' not the latest song..he2..i just listened to this song recently..and really2 like it.. :D

Apalah maumu kasih
Kaupilih diriku
Didalam hidupmu
Nyatanya kulihat kini
Tak bisa kau coba untuk setia

Sudah cukuplah sudah
Ku memberikan waktu
Kau selalu tak bisa
Mencoba untuk setia

Reff
Yang selalu kuinginkan
Yang selalu kunanti
Kau coba untuk mengerti
Apalah arti mencinta

Dan harus kau sadari
Bila ingin bersamaku
Jangan coba kau ingkari
Cobalah untuk setia..

Apalah maumu kasih
Kaupilih diriku
Didalam hidupmu
Nyatanya kulihat kini
Tak bisa kau coba untuk setia

Sudah cukuplah sudah
Ku memberikan waktu
Kau selalu tak bisa
Mencoba untuk setia

back to reff

Masihkah aku diinginkan
Masihkah aku di dambakan
Masih ada waktu untukmu
Bersamamu akankah kujalani hidup…

back to reff

Cartoons...Those were the days..

2006-09-29T13:42:00.000+08:00

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles-

i'd been watching this since..ever since i understand English, i suppose!ahaha..!well,alrite..since we moved to miri..that was what,1988?he2..and this cartoon would be on the TV every nite,around 7pm..and then we started to watch..StarTV (not astro leh..the one yang guna UHF area..)he2...and the watching cartoon session continued..till..well,till there was no more Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles on the TV.. :'(
Here's the Intro of the Cartoon..

Oh..there'll be a Teengage Mutant Ninja Turtles movie next year..i definitely WONT miss it..!!!he2..!hardcore fan youuuu..!!here's the preview..

Masked Black Rider(Kamen Rider)

-ahaa..i started watching this one, around the same time i began to watch Teenage Mutant..every evening, around 4.30-5.30 pm..i'd sit in front of the TV..and watch this one.he2..the hero hensem yuuu..awawawaa..and you know what,I NEVER KNEW IT WAS CALLED KAMEN RIDER..until THIS YEAR!ahahahaha..!!i only knew the name by "Masked Black Rider"..no wonder when people asked me if i've ever watched Kamen Rider, and i said "NO", people would look at me with a weird expression which says "no way u've never watched Kamen Rider"..he2..if they'd used "Masked Black Rider"..thennn.. i'd know..aawawawa..Kesatria Baja Hitammmmm!!!!!
Here's the intro for the series..

And here's the ending..well, i remember the ending theme most..till now i can still remember the song..shows how much i really2 loved this one..!!awawawaa!!

The Chipmunks

- ahaa.. how can i forget this one..the cutest,most adorable cartoon characters..the chipmunks.. Alvin, Simon n Theodore..he2.. also, around 5.30-6.30 pm..every evening..i'd be sitting in front of the TV..waiting for this one to start rolling..hahaha..!!Here's the intro.. *wink*

And here's another version of the introduction..!

Thundercats

- hmm.. i remember watching this cartoon too.. but..errr..cant quite remember what they're about. eheh.. -_-" Anyways..i do,of course, still remember the intro theme..

Ghostbusters

- he2.. i cant remember the three main characters..but i sure remember Slimey~!!!hahaha!!!!every nite..after dinner time..they'll be up on TV2..he2..

Transformers

- and how can i forget this one too.. Transformers..!!!

G.I. Joe

- he2.. this one..i think..during the later years..but still..in memory..he2...

Archies

- well. i dont have to explain further bout this one..he2..a cartoon bout a group of friends in a highschool..with various characters (a funny guy like jughead..the vain Reggie..the rich Veronica..and Archie himself) that gives the viewers a good time watching the cartoon (or reading the comic!)Here's the intro.."archie's here.."

And i just have to include this one.."Sugar Sugar"- The Archies 1969.. *wink* The song's Simply Hot..!!!!

*sigh*... soooo many cartoons.. so little time/space to put it all.but these are among the ones that i remember most..and i can find..well, there are a couple of cartoons.. the one where the heroes are from one place (prob. earth),"terkandas" on a planet..and they can transform into robots..(it's a japanese cartoon,translated into English)-cant remember the title..and another one is..about..KnightSaber..a robot-horse..ergh..rusted memory i have here..tried to search on Google,and i kept on getting results as Lightsaber (starwars..)hehehe..nvm la..uhuhu..katun2 yang ku tak tahu namanya..akan dikenangi sampai bila2..:D

许茹芸 - 泪海 and 王菲 - 但愿人长久

2006-09-29T12:58:00.000+08:00

He2... the title says, Valen Hsu- Lei Hai & Faye Wong- Dong Juan Ron Chui.. These two are my favourite chinese songs.. Valen's Lei Hai's a theme song from "Love of a Lifetime", a Chinese drama quite popular around 1998-1999.. i think..he2..my favourite chinese drama..(gonna post bout this in the future as well).. meanwhile, Faye's Dong.. well..the first time i heard it was when my friends held a special performance for Lantern Festival @ my college in KL..i think it has something to do..with the moon..he2..i really2 wish i understand what these songs mean..but hey,they were,and still are my favourite chinese songs.. :D Enjoy listening/watching.. :)

Eh by the way..the first clip is Valen's, and the second's Faye's.. :) Hope you guys like it.. *wink*

My all-time favourite Malay films..

2006-09-25T19:02:00.000+08:00

ALI SETAN (1985)

-Kisah mengenai kenakalan seorang mahasiswa bernama Ali di sebuah universiti. Dia sering mengusik pelajar-pelajar lain termasuklah Asmidar yang kerap menjadi mangsanya. Namun perasaan bencikan Ali akhirnya bertukar menjadi cinta. Begitu pun percintaan kedua-duanya menghadapi masalah apabila sepupu Ali, Tipah yang juga mencintai Ali mengaku dinodai oleh Ali.

-Para Pelakon:
Azmil Mustapha ... Ali
Fauziah Ahmad Daud ... Asmidar
Izi Yahya ... Jeff
Liza Abdullah ... Aini
Ebby Saiful ... Latiff
Shah Rezza ... Jali
Sheila Majid ... Tipah
Jins Shamsuddin ... Tan Sri
Prof. Abdullah Hassan ... Dekan

SUARA KEKASIH (1986)
-

- Kisah percintaan seorang penyanyi kelab malam dengan seorang pemuda kaya tidak mendapat restu daripada ibunya. Ibu penyanyi itu melarang dia bercinta dengan pemuda kaya kerana tidak mahu anaknya dihina. Keluarga pemuda itu juga ingin menjodohkan dia dengan wanita pilihan mereka.

-Para Pelakon:
Azmil Mustapha
Fauziah Ahmad Daud
Rosnani Jamil
Norlida Ahmad
Lydiawati

AZURA (1984)

-A boy from a wealthy always gathers with bad company. He is very mischief and always involves in gang fight. One day he met a girl and falls in love with her. The girl, Azura, later changed the boy's character and he became a good and well mannered boy. He proposed to Azura but thier marriage was objected by his parents because Azura comes from a poor family. Despite of his parents objection, he marries Azura and leaves behind all his family's wealth. He works as a laborer to support Azura. Everything was perfect until one day Azura is found to be pregnant. Her husband suspects that the baby she is carrying does not belongs to him. Misunderstanding then arise between them...

Para Pelakon:

Jamal Abdillah ... Zek (Zakaria bin Putih)

Fauziah Ahmad Daud ... Azura (Norazura bt Bahaman)

Maria Arshad ... Ibu Tiri Zek

A. Galak ... Datuk Putih

Rafie Hussein ... Razif

Yusni Jaafar ... Mak Long

M. Rajoli ... Pengurus Stesen Minyak

*All film summaries (and images) cited from http://www.filemkita.com/
*Soundtrack from Ali Setan - available on the right side of the blog , just click the "Play" button.. :)

Mighty To Save- Chord.

2006-09-11T16:37:00.000+08:00

Just in case i or my bro, or anyone who can play any instrument can use this.. :)

Mighty To SaveReuben Morgan, Ben Fielding
Key: AIntro:
D2 A F#m E
Verse 1:
D2 A
Everyone needs compassion
F#m
Love that's never failing
E D
Let mercy fall on me
A
Everyone needs forgiveness
F#m
The kindness of a Saviour
E D E D E
The hope of nations
Chorus:
A
Saviour
E
He can move the mountains
D A
My God is mighty to save
F#m E
He is mighty to save
A
Forever
E
Author of salvation
D A
He rose and conquered the grave
F#m E D2 A F#m E
Jesus conquered the grave
Verse 2:
D A
So take me as You find me
F#m
All my fears and failures
E D
Fill my life again
A
I give my life to follow
F#m
Everything I believe in
E D E D E
Now I surrender
Other:
D A E F#m D A E F#m
Bridge:
D
Shine Your light
A E
and let the whole world see
F#m D
We're singing
A E
For the glory of the risen King
F#m D
Jesus, Shine Your light
A E
and let the whole world see
F#m D
We're singing
A E
for the glory of the risen King

Steve Irwin, Crocodile Hunter dies..

2006-09-04T15:59:00.000+08:00

Omg... i heard a really2 shocking news just a few mins ago.. Steve Irwin's dead..isk..!!:'( i feel so sad..altho i dont know him personally, i really2 love his shows..he's so crazy n brave..hmm..i just..still shocked that he's no longer going to do any show..or appear in any TV.. :'( so sad..uwaa.. i just hope, that his soul rests in peace..he's made his fans/audience awed by his stunts,etc.. And i hope his wife Teri, be patient in enduring this moment of loss..hmm..and his children.. uwaa..!!why...!hmm..it's so..sad..so upseting!!! :'( here's an extract from The Australian..one of the dailies in the country:

Crocodile Hunter Steve Irwin killed by stingray
Staff correspondents
04sep06

STEVE Irwin, arguably the most famous Australian, is dead after being struck in the chest by a stingray while filming a documentary on the Great Barrier Reef.

Paramedics from Cairns were rushed to treat the famed film-maker and environmentalist, but were unable to save him. Mr Irwin had a puncture wound to the left side of his chest and was pronounced dead at the scene.

The Queensland Ambulance Service said a call was received about 11am (AEST) today and dispatched an emergency services helicopter to a boat on Batt Reef, off Port Douglas, with a doctor and paramedic on board.

Mr Irwin was best known for his television show The Crocodile Hunter and his work with native Australian wildlife. His wife, Terri, was hiking in the Tasmanian wilderness at the time of the incident. She was tracked down by police and informed of the tragedy.

Tributes streamed in from around the world today, with The New York Times and BBC websites among those that reported the news that the larger-than-life personality had died.

Fans were gathering at Australia Zoo, north of Brisbane, where they delivered floral tributes and gathered to remember the charismatic naturalist.

Federal MPs, including Foreign Minister Alexander Downer, sent their condolences while newspaper websites where flooded with emails saluting Mr Irwin.

Melbourne-born Mr Irwin - known worldwide as the Crocodile Hunter - is famous for his enthusiasm for wildlife and his catchcry "Crikey!".

The father of two's Crocodile Hunter program was first broadcast in 1992 and has been shown around the world on cable network Discovery.

N Qld map Thanks to his TV programs, Mr Irwin was perhaps the best-known Australian in the US. He also starred in movies and developed the Australia Zoo wildlife park, north of Brisbane, which was started by his parents Bob and Lyn Irwin.

The Irwins have two children: a daughter, Bindi Sue Irwin, 8, and a son, Robert (Bob) Clarence Irwin, three.

Mr Irwin had close links with Prime Minister John Howard and was a guest at The Lodge during a function for US President George W Bush in 2003.

"I was shocked and deeply saddened to learn of the sudden death of Steve Irwin today," Mr Howard said.

"Steve Irwin captured the imagination of Australia and the world through his television appearances as The Crocodile Hunter.

"He entertained millions of people with an unconventional style that helped him become a household name around the world."

Mr Irwin also championed many environmental projects. These included the Steve Irwin Conservation Foundation, and International Crocodile Rescue.

the late Steve Irwin.. :'(

Mfest @ Darling Harbour..and The City!

2006-09-04T08:23:00.000+08:00

Isk.. i hate this...!! i've typed a whole blog about yesterday's event, uploaded my pictures..and everything's gone with a single click of a button!! ayayyaayayayya!! ok ok.. u think u can defeat me meh??!! u think i wont be able to write again meh??!! if u really want to see me give up writing, TRY HARDER,stupid laptop!! hahahahahahahaha!! ok!! here's a recount of yesterday's event!!!

Chinese Garden, Darling Harbour.

Yesterday was quite a tiring day for me..I guess it's because i havent travelled/walked that much since..well..since! hu2..that shows how many FEW times i've enjoyed myself OUT there..anyways..the day started around 7.05am (thats when i woke up, took my shower, had my breakie,etc).. and we (izan, fiza, fiza's visiting friends from Japan, darina and the gang, and daniel) took the 9.11 am bus to the city.. arrived at Darling Harbour at 10.20am (approx)..I've been to Darling Harbour a few times before this..nothing much to see,it's after all..a port.he2..n i did take some pictures last year (and already printed,now in my album back home).anyways, we arrived at Tumbalong Park, where Mfest is held..what's Mfest? (wait..looking through my inbox to look for the info bout Mfest..he2) ok ok.. found it..here's what it said:

The festival is opened to everyone, and provides visitors with the best Malaysian experience anyone can find in Australia. It showcases the BEST Malaysian food, a whole day of cultural and contemporary performances, as well as information about Malaysia. So, what's on this year @ MFest?

Food: - there will be a huge 'gathering of food' with all the delicious Malaysian food such as Satay, Murtabak, Ikan Bakar, Nasi Lemak, Roti Jala, Laksa, Curry Puffs, Kuih varieties, and a whole range of authentic Malaysian delicacies.

Entertainment - be dazzled with the enthralling 'Asmaradana' and 'Ulek Mayang' dances, the legendary tale of the Princess of Mount Ledang, Dikir Barat, Lion Dance, various contests and activities, and special appearances by 2006 MASCA Idol from Queensland!

Merdeka Raffles Draw - buy your raffles tickets at only AU$1 each (get 2 extra tickets for free if you buy 10 before MFest day), and stand a chance to win great prizes, including 2 return flight tickets to Kuala Lumpur from Sydney, exclusive hotel stays, generous food vouchers, and much more.

View important raffles draw details at www.malaysiafest.com , under the 'What's On' section.

Here are the details for MFest 2006

MFest will be on Sunday, 3rd of September 2006, from 10am-6pm.

It will be at Tumbalong Park, Darling Harbour (near Chinese Garden of Friendship, map available at www.malaysiafest.com).

The food was indeed better than last year's.. i bought Nasi lemak with chicken curry for $8, that's rm24 just for nasi lemak dan kari ayam..but hey, I AM SATISFIED. (so dont tell me that i'm crazy to buy such expensive food, coz it's MY MONEY,MY TUMMY!!!!!i've bought wanton noodles for $13 a bowl..so DONT U DARE criticize me on how i spend my money, coz it's MINE,not yours..what do YOU know about buying Asian food in Australia?!!!)..hmm..i'm so emotional rite now coz i'm still pissed off by the stupid mistake just now.. (u know, the finished blog, gone just like that..) damn. anyways, cut the story short (and FCUK you who dare to comment on my poor english. u're not an orang putih yourself. u're an ORANGUTAN!)..izan and i joined the other audience on the field..we sat on the grass and enjoyed the performances while eating our food.. *wink* this year's Mfest is different than last year's coz it's more happening, most probably coz of the weather.. previous years, the weather hadnt been friendly or helpful to the Mfest event..it was always raining, and really2 windy during Mfest.but not this year..he2..what a great experience for our last Mfest in Sydney.. :)With the crowd..

Izan and i left Mfest around 1 pm, and spent the rest of the afternoon window shopping at QVB..(SES, Supre`, Perfume Shop-uuuu..!!Glow Pink's scent is sooooooooooo nice!!waaa..!!i really2 love it..!no more estee lauder!! it's gonna be Glow Pink now!hehe)..After spending almost two hours in QVB, we ended up at Pitt Street (Deja Vu of being in Brisbane few months back! the whole environment was exactly like what i experienced in Brisbane!the street, shops, stree performances, etc..!) .. Somehow later we ended up at Hyde Park.. heh..Izan had been telling me about this "garden"/"park" that she'd been to. It's a large park, etc..but she never mentioned the name of the park to me.If she'd mentioned it to me, i could've known what park she was talking about.. coz most of my "friends" had been there!he2!anyways, only when we were there and saw the sign that said "HYDE PARK" then only we know that we're "there". well, i didnt take pics there..just one in front of a Cathedral (cant remember what's the name)..and we took a rest for almost an hour sitting on the grass..such a great weather..we felt so relaxed at that time as we've been walking for 6 hours!hu2..!

We then got back to QVB, took the bus to Macquarie Uni (we went to the library first before going back home to surf the internet).. and got back around 6.20 pm..tired..but satisfied.. =D it was a really2 great day @ the city with izan.. :) hehe..i really2 had fun, and felt relaxed.. *wink* and i'm definitely gonna come back (for my GLow Pink!!!!)..hueheueu..!! =D =D

Sergeant Indang ak Engkas, P.G.B. In A Firefight At Tanjung Kunyit- Cited from http://renjervalour.blogspot.com

2006-09-02T08:02:00.000+08:00

I'm not sure how i ended up in a blog about valour awards (pingat keberanian).. and saw my grandfather's brother's name.Well actually it all started with reading about Kanang ak Langkau, the man who received the Pingat Gagah Berani and Seri Pahlawan Gagah Perkasa..anyways..i thought of my late grandfather..and simply typed his name in google..he2..and the page just popped up!


This page (click here) contains a detailed recount of my granduncle's experience of battling the communist with his ermm.."team" in Bintangor in 1972.. :) i enjoyed reading it.after all, history's my favourite subject.. *wink* And i dont know what it is..but i feel,hmmm..proud, of my granduncle..and of course, my grandfather, who's served the army all his life as well..for his bravery.. :D May God Bless my grandfather's soul..:)

This is the Valour Awards..Pingat Gagah Berani..

Merdeka Day

2006-08-31T11:48:00.000+08:00

Well.. it's 31/08/06.. Malaysia's celebration of its 49 years of Independence.. not that i'm gonna talk too much bout the celebration itself..coz its basically the same every year.. a nation-wide celebration (by the way, this year, Kuching's the centrepoint for the nationwide Merdeka celebration..*sigh*..cant deny that i'm missing the Merdeka mood :'(..huhu..) this photo somehow captured my interest as i was browsing thru google to look for the Malaysian flag pictures..heheh..usually during the Merdeka month, you can see cars being decorated with various decorations and stickers, etc of the Malaysian Flag..and there's this "Merdeka Sale" going on almost in every shopping mall around malaysia..aiyaa..really2 miss the celebration there.. uwa uwa..!hu2..nvm..next year i'll be there to experience it..and the year after that..and after that..and so forth..~,~! heehhe..anyays, this weekend i'm going to the city with Izan and Fiza for the MalaysianFest.. i went to the same function last year,didnt really enjoy myself that much coz 1: it was sooooo cold and i was wearing quite an unsuitable shirt n was shivering all the time in the city..grr.. 2: the prices of the food at the stalls were quite..expensive..hmm.. 3: it wasnt as much fun as they said it'd be (indah khabar dari rupa..) heheeh there there there..then why am i going this year then? 1: it's my final year here, so might as well just join any events by the MSA (Msian Students Assoc) while i still can..he2.. 2: i havent been to the city for..sooooooooooo long (i wonder if i've been there this year!) hoho.. so it's an opportunity for me to..JALAN2 la..! eheh.. 3: i've got a feeling i'm gonna buy some food..no matter how expensive it is..coz i'm CRAVING for the malaysian food..!argh! hu2.. well.. that's.. 3 vs. 3 points.. so..no more arguments eyh? hehehe..

okeh okeh..enuf story bout the merdeka celebration.. yesterday..eh, no..the day before yesterday (29th August 2006), i shall declare as the day when i found my long-lost friends... hehehe..deh..they've not been lost that long actually.. let's see..that afternoon.. Hani (the one whom i stayed with when i was in Brisbane last autumn (april)) called...we talked roughly around 8 mins..eheh..feels so good to catch up some news with her..it's good to hear that she's doing alrite over there..and we also talked bout how fast time flies (like, last time, we were talking bout..how we're gonna get thru 2 years in Aus..and now we're already talking bout getting together in IPBA (KL) !!) Then that evening, Grace... my long-time best friend from Sarawak.. YM-ed me..hu2..unfortunately i was downstairs watching the Simpsons and having my dinner..by the time i got back to her, she was going to go offline..wa waa..but heck...still,i'm happy to see her online after sooo long of not talking to each other..soo many things to catch up with her (gossips, news..etc).. Then, later that evening..i got to talk and meet my other coursemates (ex-roomate n friends) from Victoria Univ of Wellington (NZ) .. again, it felt so good to meet angah (my ex-roomate 2002-2003)..and our other friends..we havent seen each other for almost two years..:D hehe..!what can i say..such a happening day for my friendship history eyh??

bah bah..what else..hermz hermz hermz..cant quite think of anything for the time being.Izan looked quite down today..i think she's worried bout the assignmentS (ohhhh..must i remind myself that i SHOULD feel the same too..but nooo..i'm still grinning my way..waittt.waiitt..i still have..2 weeks for my first assignment..and one month for the rest.. hherhgherhgherhgh..).. anyways..gonna sign off now..see ya! *wink*

Dreadfully sick... :'(

2006-08-20T08:40:00.000+08:00

I cant believe that i'm still sick since Tuesday.. Exactly one week ago, i was enjoying myself with Izan at Mac Centre, window shopping.. eating kfc.. and tried McD's latest promo-the Crunchie Explosion..and boy, it sure did exploded ME with two days of fever (Tues & Wed), five days of sorethroat (Tues till today), four days of horrible coughing (Wed till today)..i never thought i'd be sick this long..which is why i never bought any medicines for myself, coz i thought taking paracetamols would be enough..they're enough alright, enough for my fever, but not for my sorethroat and cough...so i bought fisherman's friend..HAHA..talk bout being a cheapskate..

i THOUGHT it (sorethroat n cough) would be better, but NOO..it got worse..how worse?as worse as i had to QUIT my church camp half way for the weekend!!I paid $80 for the full 2 days, 3 nights church camp, and i only managed to go through ONE night, and ONE day (arrived friday night, went back saturday noon..). Why?coz my coughing got really worse that i couldnt concentrate on the seminars, i couldnt talk to anyone without coughing, i couldnt sing, i couldnt do anything without coughing! :'( and when you cough continously, it DOES NOT feel good at all in your throat, and your chest. I decided to go back yesterday noon and i felt REALLY, REALLY bad for missing out the rest of the camp..

*sigh*.. why, oh why..of all days, of all weeks, of all places, of all moments..NOW i'm so sick..why didnt i get sick when i was in Miri? when i have my parents to take care of me? where...where it's home..if i were in KL, i would've gone back to home..but i'm HERE!!! argh..!coughing my lungs out wasnt the worst part.. i had other stuff that adds to my PHYSICAL pain. the psychological pressure of being away from home, being alone, and something else which is not so important that USED TO bother me,but not anymore coz i decided to IGNORE "it"..huh.. i was coughing really bad last evening and i had a sudden homesick rush..hoho..but i recovered soon after taking a warm shower..

did i say i was alone?nope..if i were alone, i would've been a recluse, a loner, a what-ever-u call them..I have OTHER coursemates to say hye to, other people i can talk to, i have MY FAMILY who's always with me in my heart, even tho physically apart, but is always there for me. if you're happy to see me in my state of illness, hopelessness, loneliness, LAUGH while you still can..every cloud has its silver lining. :)

Akhirnya ku menemukanmu..(by Naff)

2006-08-09T16:55:00.000+08:00

My Syl gave me this song this afternoon..guwey suka banget sama itu lirik..:*:*:* thanks sayang..! I love u.. ;))

akhirnya ku menemukanmu
saat hati ini mulai meragu
akhirnya ku menemukanmu
saat raga ini ingin berlabuh

ku berharap engkau lah
jawaban sgala risau hatiku
dan biarkan diriku
mencintaimu hingga ujung usiaku

jika nanti ku sanding dirimu
miliki aku dengan segala kelemahanku
dan bila nanti engkau di sampingku
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Back to the battlefield..sigh

2006-08-05T09:58:00.000+08:00

Jeez, time sure really fly fast..if u havent noticed it,i have! feels as if it's still the beginning of the first semester when it's actually already the second semester right now! and week 1 has just ended with lengthy lectures (try to imagine SIX hours of lecture the whole day for a FRIDAY!), and assignments being given to us (TONNES AND TONNES! of them!)..seems like its gonna be a very busy semester for ME, (it better be! after that oh-so-poor result of mine last sem!)..so sort of made a promise to myself..GONNA WORK HARD this sem! work hard! work hard!

Since coming back from malaysia..besides getting loads of assignment..i also got myself sick (flu + cough) right now..damn..and i'm on duty for singing tomorrow at TCM! uwaa..~ really hope it wont be that bad..aiyaa..huhu..might be the extreme change of weather from a standard 30 degs in m'sia to 12 degs in sydney..:( argh..nvm..sonner or later i'm gonna be alrite..ehee..homesick? well, the first few days were pretty "rocky"..but i managed to go through the days without crying with my mum on the phone.. :D (heh..maybe i've cried enuf at the airport!!hahah!).. :)anyways, mum said last nite that dad's getting better (Thank You, God.. :) ) and my mum's having flu pulak..ayaa..! must be from my dad..just hope that they'll both get better by the end of this week..there's no one to take of them except each other.. :( oh by the way, my brother's coming back in ..less than two weeks' time, so i guess they wont feel that "empty" anymore. :) mizz them, a lot, but hey..four months (approx. 16 weeks) is not that long when u have 13 weeks of lectures and assignments! assignments! assignments!.. ;)

Syl's been transfered to Kuching, starting from next week..good for him, coz it sure is so much better for him to be in Kuching..:D muah!! :* a part of me is happy for him..and well..a part of me is quite ..reluctant to accept the fact that there'll be less chatting, less phone calls after this.. sobsobsobsobsobsobs.. :'( but we keep on reminding ourselves.. four months.. JUSTTT four months.. it's nottt that long..huhu!! it better be!

hehe..guess that's all i have to write for now.. p/s: lovers in paris (the korean drama i've been watching for the past one month back in malaysia).. the ending: tae-young ends up with ki-joo.. hehe..as if i expected it to end in a TWISTED way.. nooonoonooo..they're supposed to be together, coz they love each other mann!! eheheh..okeh okeh.. better go mandi now.. :P

Makan bubur with ads..!

2006-07-21T14:07:00.000+08:00

hehe..early this morning, and i mean EARLY..eh,not THAT early..but earlier than normally..(7.30 am)..went out with Ads for a breakie at Chin-chin's restaurant at lutong..We had porridge there,n it was my first time..i havent been to chin's restaurant for a long time..and the porridge was nice..i liked it..*wink*..hehe..

ads' car had some problem..it started with some strange noise from the engine..and i thought it had something to do with the aircond or something..and we thought that it was nothing serious..until the car actually broke down in front of the school when he sent me back!huhu..kesiannya ads..!at first i thought that it wont be that serious,and so i went back home la..from my home's balcony,i saw him (and the car) still out there..n i felt so guilty for leaving my friend out there alone!huhu~~!!

so i teman ads until the mechanic arrived..and kejap saja it seemed that the prob was solved coz i went out with my parents a few mins after that,and the car wasnt there anymore..hehe..nasib baik kan ads??anyways..lended him my United album, hope he'd enjoy the songs..ok la..now i'm sleepy.. =p just want to "record" this morning's happenings here..heehee..!

huhu..result oh result..

2006-07-18T11:59:00.000+08:00

wa waaa..my results are out..the worst grades i've ever got in my degree history..ayaa~~ no one to blame but myself.. :'( pass memang pass..but only one distinction, and two passes (that's like, one B, and 2 Ds!)..ayaayaa~~huhu~~~taubatttt...i MUST do better and try harder next sem..!!uwawawa~~ Dear God, thank you for making me pass last semester..Please guide me for my next semester, I want to achieve more than this..Help me Lord... :) Help me to stay focused in my studies, and to really work hard for it..huhu~~!!

Damaged..

2006-07-14T21:32:00.000+08:00

Damaged by TLC

I know I'm kinda strange, to you sometimes
Don't always say, what's on my mind
You know that I've been hurt, by some guy
But I don't wanna mess up this time

[BRIDGE] And I really really really care
And I really really really want you
And I think I'm kinda scared
Cos I don't want to lose you
If you really really really care
Then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you

[CHORUS] My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that I've been damaged
I'm falling in love
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged

I might look through your stuff,
for what I don't wanna find
Or I might just set you up,
to see if you're all mine
I'm a little paranoid,
from what I've been through
Don't know what you got yourself into

And I really really really care (And I care about you so much)
And I really really really want you (I really do want you)
And I think I'm kinda scared (But I'm scared with every touch)
Cos I don't want to lose you (Cos I don't want to lose you)
If you really really really care (If you care for me like you say)
Then maybe you can hang through (Then maybe you can hang through)
I hope you understand (I hope you understand)
It's nothing to you (It's nothing to you, you)

I love you so much syl..and i really care about u..Hang through with me sayang..
Love always, Val.. :*

Yesterday Once More-The Carpenters

2006-07-11T20:41:00.000+08:00

I was watching "Meet Again", a japanese drama..a few days ago..and this song was played..and i figured that i REALLY, REALLY love this song..its by The Carpenters, and the title is "Yesterday Once More".. come to think bout it..i think most oldies' songs are far better than today's songs.. *wink*.. this song is..so sentimental..eheh...:) wait till i get the audio/video..i'll put it on here so we can listen to it together alrite??

When I was young
I'd listen to the radio
Waitin' for my favorite songs
When they played I'd sing along
It made me smile.

Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd gone
But they're back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well.

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.

When they get to the part
Where he's breakin' her heart
It can really make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more.

Lookin' back on how it was
In years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed.

It was songs of love that
I would sing to then
And I'd memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away.

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.

All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry.

Just like before
It's yesterday once more

The One..

2006-06-17T15:15:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. due to such limited time to write this blog (tgh curi2 online lagik tuk).. hehehe.. i'll tell more about US in my next entry.. SYLVESTER, i love u!

Sunday, 18/06/06: We met in RD.com, one of the foruming websites i frequently visit..sometimes its funny to look back into RD.com-situation, coz we NEVER EVER "spoke" to each other, and it never crossed my mind that we would ever got to know each other and be friends, and what more to say, to be in this beautiful relationship rite now! It all started early in March, when bro Roland created the topic "sapa bala ari kapit", and i said i miss my hometown, and it went on with our friends asking which part of kapit, and a friend of my cousin said that he knows my uncle, and of course, my longhouse..

and that evening i got a message in my forum account (from Syl.. eheh~), and i found out that he's not only from the same longhouse, he's from NEXT DOOR!all that i could think of was.."what a small world!!"..hehe..and since then we would message each other, and chatted through gmail..and after a bit of promotion and persuasion, we moved to YM..hehee..everything started as a sister-brother r'ship..but i just felt SOMETHING different towards him after a few weeks, and told him to stop calling me sis..hehee.. =p and we became good friends since then..chat almost everyday..we can just talk and talk and talk bout everything..and i find myself..liking him even more and more each time we see each other online..u know whats the best thing? i found myself exploring things i've never thought to explore before (like, Star Wars..) hehehe.. :p Syl made me look into things from a different angle, and not to be doubtful to discover new things.. =D

Syl is so precious and so special to me.. he made me feel, ermm.. meaningful.. respected.. loved...SINCERELY. He is what i'll call a beautiful soul (wait!wait!wait!'beautiful soul' here does not have anything to do with Jesse McCartney's song..i HATE him..ewwww..)..hmm..u know, no words can express how grateful i am to God, that i've found Syl..i just pray, that He'll bless this relationship, and both of us..coz this is one of the things in life that i treasure most at the moment..also, i can never find any words to tell Syl how much i love him..eheh~~I will do my best to love him, and i pray that God will always be with me, and guide me in this relati0nship..hehe..

Syl and I have both different and similar interests. Our similarities lie on our music interests.. we both listen to everything, but Indonesian bands are one of our favs..Our differences lie on our movie interests.. hehe..he loves twisted movies that needs viewers to THINK, while i on the other hand, prefer simple stupid comedies and romantic comedies.. hehee.. :p (like, Vandetta vs. How to lose a guy in 10 days.. =p) but, bcoz of Syl, i would watch Vandetta a hundred times if it's him i watch it with.. :p heheheh.. betul ni bah.. =D

Just sharing my happiness right now with u guys..(sbnarnya donno how to end this entry..kekekekee) ok lah..Dear God, I thank You so much, for bringing Syl in to my life, for listening to my prayers all this while.. Be with us, Lord, in each time, each moment of our relationship, for it's by Your will that i've found him.. :) Syl, i love u so much.. so very2 much.. *blush*

HOME SWEET HOME

2006-06-13T17:41:00.000+08:00

Yeehaaaaaaaaa!!i'm back home nooooww....feels soooo good to be with my parents.. but at the same time so empty without my brother.. :( hmm.. but also feels so good to have Syl almost all the time on the phone (sms..) eheh!! MUAHZ .. :* :* :* !! :p okeh.. i'll write up more after this... just wanna let the readers know that I AM HOME! ahuahauhauahua!!!

Language as a right.

2006-06-10T15:59:00.000+08:00

I dont really know how to start this entry, as i'm still pissed off at some individuals who think that they're just so good, so smart, so great.. One of my blog members' blog was attacked by a number of individuals who claimed that his blog as an insult to our race, that it's such a shame that the blogger used another language for his blog. They used really offensive words, and it really pissed me off that the way they criticize another person's blog with all the insults and degrading comments! To me , the most important thing about writing something is to PRESENT the PURPOSE of that material, and to ensure that readers understand the intention or the message, regardless of any LANGUAGE that's used by the writer!

If some of u might question, "why terasa if it's SOMEONE ELSE'S work that 's being attacked?", OF COURSE I FEEL OFFENDED BY IT! becoz i'm one of those people who PREFER to use another language than my own mother tongue when blogging! it's not that i TOTALLY ignore my language, or HATE my language, that's like, letting go of my own identity! And if one ever lets go of his/her identity, that's like letting go of one's life. hehe.. anyways, back to the language.. arent these jerks aware that EVERY individual has a right to acquire/learn ANY language, and use ANY language as their individual rights? jeez.. it is ONE's right to use whatever language they want in giving THEIR OWN views, so why the *fish* (to avoid any offense to readers, the word F*ck has been replaced with a more decent item =p ) must these group of so-called-nationalists (my ass) come and ATTACK, INSULT that INDIVIDUAL?! makes no *FISHING* sense at all. Like, if they dont like what they're seeing/reading, then DONT BOTHER READING AT ALL!

seriously, it's these type of... CREATURES that really make this world an unhappy place to live in! why oh why do they must EXIST?! why cant they just DIE with their stupidity and super mega arrogance???! if u ask, "well, why do YOU bother attacking them back?" i'd give u this answer: "i believe in standing up for MY RIGHTS, and those who i believe have the same rights that i do, and i believe that NO ONE HAS ANY RIGHT TO TELL WHAT *FISHING* LANGUAGE ANOTHER PERSON SHOULD USE!!".. to the person who DARE to WARN me, i'll tell u to FCUK YOURSELF, @$$hole!!! piece of craps.

Salaam Namaste

2006-06-06T09:32:00.000+08:00

Assignments over, err..no.. not really.. i still have one assignment to hand in this Friday..but hey,nothing wrong with celebrating an early "freedom" yesterday just for a bit rite?hehe..anyways,after i had my dinner at Oporto (yes,syl,AYAM lagi.hehehe..),went back,borrowed a Hindi DVD from my friend. I'm not a reeeeeeeeeeeely big fan of hindi movies, but i do watch them.And sometimes the good ones might be in one of my favourite lists.. ;) The movie that i watched last nite was called "Salaam Namaste", and features Saif Ali Khan and Pretty Zinta..if u've ever watched "Kya Kehna" (also featuring both of them), it's something similar with that movie,but a bit more..ermm..relaxing.hehe..Kya Kehna was a good movie,but today i'm going to focus on Salaam Namaste.

Salaam Namaste-The movie's setting is set in Melbourne, Australia, and centralizes at St. Kilda..argh~~ my friends are going there this winter..too bad i'm going back home, issk..but nevermind..i promise myself that one day i'm going to come back here. :) anyways, back to the movie.. it's basically almost similar to most love stories... hate-love-hate-love kind of situation..

The characters Ambar (Pretty) and Nick (Saif) hated each other in the beginning and they haven't met each other before that (you see, Nick turned up so late for Ambar's radio show, that Ambar cancelled Nick's interview and insulted him as being lazy, liar, and never on time, and both hated each other purely despite the fact that they've never met).

Love: Fate has it that the two met at a friend's wedding, and it was love at first sight for Nick, and there was a really strong chemistry going on between the two when they were talking and dancing, etc (by the way, Ambar's a doctor, and her job as an RJ is part-time, while Nick is a chef, but he graduated as an architect. So neither of them knew that one was a chef and the other one an RJ, until the end of the wedding..) At the end of the wedding, then only Nick and Ambar found out that they're supposed to be "enemies" in the radio show. But the next morning Nick came to the radio show for the interview with Ambar, apologized to her on air, etc..and told her that he loves her! (yup..talk about being rush..!)

And the movie goes on moving from Ambar's reluctance to admit that it's love, coz it's too soon and that they still dont know each other well. so Nick persuaded her to stay together with him, so that they will be able to know each other more, and spend more time together.. after much persuasion (Ambar admits that there IS something between them, and she should give their relationship a chance, or else she'd regret it like, 10 years later if she never did) they finally rented a beach house for a year (both had to sacrifice a GREAT deal of money for this..).

Everything went on perfectly, and i really mean perfectly.. Both were tolerant to each other's interest and personalities.. (they stayed in different rooms in the beginning, but hey..when the chemistry's too strong, and you're together most of the time..u know what happens..).. Everyday was a beautiful day for both of them, full with sharing, love, etc..a life just like a married couple.

Hate: Things took a dramatic change when Ambar discovered that she was pregnant. Nick asked her to have an abortion, and she almost did it, but changed her mind when she realized that she's carrying another LIFE in her. Nick went totally ballistic because he wasnt ready to have a baby, and he does not want to get married because he's afraid that all of the happiness will be gone once they're married. He thinks that once married, couples will take each other for granted, and there will be no more romance, or the other things that they have before marriage. Having deciding on that, Ambar made a decision that her life and her baby will have nothing to do with Nick anymore after that. However, they still have to live together under the same roof until the one year ends because the land owner would not return their money to them if they decide to leave earlier. More fights happen between Ambar and Nick, each became selfish, and intolerate. They both just wont consider one another's condition or interest anymore, and often criticizes the other for being "pregnant" (Ambar) or a "perfectionist" (Nick).

Love: Another turn of change happened when during one of the fights, Ambar felt the baby kicking, and both of them were amazed at the feeling.. (Nick felt the kick coz he put his hand on her tummy)..and u know that typical scenes in Hindi movies when there's a change in the situation, there's a music playing in the background..hehee..so ya.. Nick began to realize..about..everything. (despite all the fights, both still love each other very2 much, u see.) As Nick became more and more aware about parenthood, sacrifice, responsibility, and how this really explains what love is, confusion enters the scene where Nick thought that Ambar was getting married to her best friend, Jignesh.

Too frustrated, Nick got drunk, came back with a mat salleh girl.. and when he woke up the next morning, Ambar found out that the girl was in his room..and she too became so frustrated.. Nick later discovered that NOTHING happened with the mat salleh girl, because he kept on talking about Ambar that night, and nothing happened at all between them. In his search for Ambar, Nick went on air live in the "Salaam Namaste" show, and pleaded to the listeners to call him if they see Ambar anywhere. He finally found her at a pier, i think.. and was about to propose to her when she suddenly had to deliver at that moment! Everything went on quite chaotic-ly and the movie ended in the delivery room.. Ambar forgave Nick,and accepted his wedding proposal BEFORE delivering the babies. (twins.)..

Alright, the movie wasnt THAT bogus, at least not to me. Because mainly i dont really feel..touched by it, maybe because of the few comical/funny scenes when it's supposed to be a critical one. But altogether, the songs were really really nice, this i can assure you.. ;) They're not..ermm..not boring, but modern and the music is nice too.. :) By the way, Saif and Pretty really really can make a good couple on screen, just like Kajol and Shah Rukh Khan.. i guess that's what makes the movie a good one to watch.. :D

Missing My Family..

2006-06-03T15:57:00.000+08:00

Today my family's in KL, coz my brother's going to register @ UM tomorrow..Hmm.. i dont know why..but i feel so..ermm.. homesick.. suddenly i miss my parents n boy.. akai.. i dont know when else will i meet my brother and play PS2, or jalan2 around miri..kutuk2 people..or even fight..:'( hmm..i know i'll feel so empty when i go back next week..he wont be there..isk!! uwaa!!*sigh*.. but i have to be strong, cant let mom know that i feel sad, coz i know that she's more sad than i am..heehee..she told me yesterday..how she couldnt imagine how it'd be like when my brother's not around..and me too.hmm.. all of this..brings me back to thinking about..time. like, how FAST time flies.. *sigh*..

last time, my brother and i were..inseparable..although we both have our own lives (frens,other interests) still, we're always together..but now..he's taking the first step..leaving us..! :'( i guess this is what we call.. face the reality.. hmm.. i hope, and really2 hope, my brother will be alrite..being on his own..i mean, none of his friends are with him (they're all @ KML)..its just him..please be alrite..i hope he's going to be a successful MAN.i really2 pray to God, to guide him and be with him, where ever he is..I'm coming back next week to fill in the emptiness that my parents will feel when my brother's not at home anymore..but who'll fill MY emptiness without him..? :'( iskk!i dont want my brother to be "distant" from us..hmm.. i dont know.. thats the main thing i'm so worried about right now..please God, bless my brother, may he have a bright future, a wonderful life ahead of him.. :)

Oh well.. all i can do now, is pray for him.. :) argh.. how i wish i'm with them at this moment in KL.. just like how they sent me for my studies last time..:) uwaaa.. i really2 miss my family!! adui...!! isk~~! hmmm~~ Dear God, please, take this worry away from me.. be with them where ever they are in KL right now..bless them so that they're safe, and everything will be alright for them tomorrow..and when my parents return to miri and when my brother steps into his new life as a uni student.. Amen..

Birthday, Gawai & Assignments!

2006-06-02T07:47:00.000+08:00

Fuhh.. its Friday morning today, and i got up 10 mins before 9am, which is my Educ 390 lecture time..ah.. so i decided to just skip the lecture and MIGHT go for the tutorial later.. luckily i've finished my Ling 312 assignment last night itself..otherwise i would've suffered now..hehee..slept quite well last nite,just a bit tired i gues.. i didnt have any dinner, just french fries.. :'( buat lagi kerja last minute.. my goodness.. i dont know WHEN will i ever change!erghh~uhuh~~i'd always come up with a new semester's resolution- no more procrastination!no more! no more! and the next thing i know,i'd be typing my ass off to finish my assignment the night before deadline!argh~!adui..~hehehe.. anyways, below will be a summary of this week's big happenings.. :p

Tuesday (30/05/06): My birthday! i'm officially 22 years old now..!although that day wasnt really a "good" day for me, still the night ended quite alright.. :p I had a presentation that afternoon (and i really HATE presentations!gosh! i really hate them!coz i dont do well speaking in front of a group- i can teach, but not present..)..survived the presentation well.heheh..!after that i went to Woolsworth with afzan, coz i figured i really have to buy some bread and some things to eat..and while we were at one of the compartments, we saw a row of small teddy bears..afzan said they were cute, but i just kept walking on..and then, afzan seemed to be stuck with the teddy bears so i decided to pay my stuff first and wait for her.. ONLY THE NEXT MORNING, then i know what's the deal with the teddy bears was!ahaha..she was calling/smsing my housemates whether she should buy the teddy bear as a present from all of them for my birthday!hehe..alaaa~~~ :p

anyways, that night i got a birthday card from all of them.. :) and that night also, my mum wished me happy birthday from home (dad,mom & boy)..mum said that dad smsed me that morning, but i didnt get any sms from him.dont know what went wrong..so kesian my dad..adui..he actually woke up early that morning to sms me and wish me happy birthday, only to know that the sms didnt get its way to me!uwaa..! but i'm really touched that he remembers..ehehe.. *wink* uhuh..mizz them, mizz the times when it's my birthday and we'd eat out..or buy something for me..akai.. eheh~!

Reflection: i'm 22 years old now..wow.. cant believe that i am more than 20 years old already!hahah!still in the process of growing matured in my personality, my thoughts/intellectuality, etc.. :p

Wednesday (31/05/06): That morning i got a surprise when i opened my bedroom door and the small teddy bear was dangling outside on my doorknob!hehhe..!afzan told me that she only put it there earlier that morning when i said "kesiannya diyer sorang2 dok luar malam2,eee..".. hehee.. it's cute baa..small lagi tu..eheehe..my housemates really know what i like oh.. :P i guess it's not that hard to know what a person likes/dislikes when u know/live with her for what, almost 2 years?yeah.. a big thanks to my housemates for the thoughtful birthday present..eheh!anyways, that day we went for school observation (its our final week, thursday was our final day at Normanhurst).. and we skipped Sports with our assignments as our excuse.. which meant we didnt get to see Narman and Sameed (yes, Sameed, not Sameer!)..they must've been looking for us during the badminton practice..hehe..i'll remember those two after this,coz they're really good students..hehe!(gosh,the problem with me is that i can easily get attached to students..adui..).. okay okay..so, nothing much different happened that Wednesday..

Syl went back to Kapit that morning. I had to borrow my friend's credit to sms him early that morning to say goodbye n take care.. :p Erghh~~~ jelez juga ni actually, coz he's going back to see our rumah, and i'll only get to go back END OF THIS YEAR!uwaaa..!i mizz my granma, everyone there,the rumah..akai dai.. hehe.. i'm sure Syl's enjoying himself there..grrr..nvm, around one week's time i'll be back in Malaysia and i'll torture u.. :p eheh~!muahh!!

Thursday (1/6/06): Gawai celebration. well, at least in Sarawak..hehe.. everyone in the virtual world from Sarawak has gone balik kampung, except for a few people i know..some bcoz of work, study, etc.. well.. i'm one of them..ergh~~even my family couldnt balik kampung this year coz my brother's going to UM on the 4th of June..hmm..anyways, back to my context.. it was our last day in Normanhurst.. apart from the usual classroom observations, everything went on very fast..like, one day we were introduced to the staff of the school, and the next we're saying goodbye and thanks to everyone there.. sobsobsobsobsobsobsobs..no more Extension 2 sessions with one of the Year 12 boys.. no more Year 12 classes!! adoi..heheh.. no more cuci mata..kekekekee..:p but i'm sure they'll do well for their HSC this year, coz they're students from a selective school after all.. ;) Good luck Normanhurst boys!!! another sad thing is that i didnt get to see both Narman and Sameed to say good bye and sorry we didnt come for badminton the other day..hhmmmm.. i guess i can only wish them luck from my heart.. :) they'll be successful and good adults one day,i'm sure.. hehe..

Later that night i worked my ass off to finish my Ling 312 assignments.. miraculously i managed to finish by 10.30 pm, took my shower, and slept.. and woke up this morning late for lecture.. (gulp, i'm going to be late for tutorial if i dont stop right now!) i guess thats about it, the updates for this week's event.. my birthday and gawai "celebrated" with my exciting assignments.. :P hehe..

Encuba bahasa Iban..

2006-05-29T09:25:00.000+08:00

Sigi ka cuba2 blog dlm iban.. hehe.. laban org "nyin" complain kelalu ribai blog ku ko ya..haha!kumbai ya nda nemu jaku iban gik ku neh..:p peda d cayang..hehe..alah d ari aku jaku iban ditu..hak hak.. :p mwah~! ehem..nama ka padah oh..ari tuk aku ka ngaga assignment! hehe..akai dai..(hampir2 ka naip "what else oh"..tapi lbn tuk post bahasa iban,aku ka ngagai 100% iban!..hehe..) nama gik oo...29-05-06 sari tu..ari Satu,pagi enda nurun "counselling session"..malaz ku..ka ngaga assignment kunun,agi meh kucah2 ngapa ditu..hak hak..lemai legik mesti nurun lecture ah..akai dai..pegilak bisi presentation gik..uwaaa.pegilak birthday aku ah..eheh..enti aku ba miri mesti bc mamam kluar.. :'( (tiba sedih mai aaaa..) uhukz..nda apa la..i'm coming back in two weeks time!!!! HAR HAR HAR! ehem..org "nyin"..arap2 online pegilak.. :P i have two major assignments to finish THIS FRIDAY! muahahhahaaaa..!! come on val! u can do it!! hyeak! hyeak~~! gambate kudasai!!! :p hergherhghergh.. wokeh.. enuf crapping.gonna start my assignment NOW..o ya...i added something on my blog, "guestmap".. check it out..just mark your location, and add a comment or whatever.. ;) hehe..

Counting the Days.. approaching deadline..

2006-05-27T07:27:00.000+08:00

p/s: i had actually typed the title as "couting the days..".. and when i checked my blog i realized the typo.. couting?!!! ahahhaa..!-so i changed it to Counting. the right one.
Now let's see.. it's Saturday again..time to reflect back on this week's happenings.. *wink*

Saturday (20-05-06): Didnt do much that day.. i remembered i was supposed to do a bit of my assignment, but ended up going to MC alone that afternoon coz i got so bored.. ehehe.. so anyways, went to MC's Borders.. spent a couple of hours there.. bought two books, "I Was Just Wondering" and "What's so Amazing about Grace?" , both by Philip Yancey.. currently reading "I was just wondering"..but not sure when will i finish it..maybe when i'm back in Malaysia next month..!coz really, time is sooooo limited right now,really cant find any space to breathe..errr..naa..that's a bit of exaggeration there..ahah!u understand what i mean, or at least try/pretend to understand.. :P Yeah well, after buying those books, (i got 20% discount coz that day was err.. a special offer day thing..) went to Gloria Jeans, and had a regular Tim Tam Iced Chocolate (10% discount coz i bought the book from Borders that day).. after that..when i was heading for the mall's exit, i saw that it was raining outside.. (jeez~~!) and had to sit at a bench near the entrance for 15 mins.. just to wait fo the rain to stop.. :) luckily it did.. stopped for a while at the library on my way back..:)

Sunday (21-05-06): Cafe Church was on that Sunday.. it was just a session of church service, but we're seated around a table, and were served with cakes by the children, while a group (consisting the constant worship team..) performs on the stage.. and of course there was a sermon.. it was a guest speaker (errr..ow~!cant remember his name right now!) and it was about "deciding who Jesus is to me".. :) after the service, went to MC with mel and afzan..had "bacon double cheeseburger with mushroom sauce" at Hungry Jack's.. ehe..

Monday (22-05-06): That morning we completed our MAC ICDL course.. took us less than two hours, coz it was pretty simple (which was still a bit difficult coz hey, just how OFTEN do we use apple?!).. thank God, we managed to complete the exercises that day itself.. by that afternoon my illness (flu+cough+headache) was getting worse, and i could hardly sit up.. so i skipped my Ling 320.. ergh..~ i just couldnt get myself to get up..! hmm.. My DV came online that evening (i was a bit angry that afternoon since he didnt come as he'd promised, but hey, he came finally, so.. hehe..) .. couldnt chat for long.. hmm.. :'( mich yu.. after that i slept..

Tuesday (23-05-05): Went to watch Da Vinci alone at Greater Union @ MC that morning..(not that i'm complaining..i dont mind at all actually going alone.. *wink*).. it was the 11 am show, and since the movie ended right around 1.45 pm , i made it just on time for Ling 340..ehe..before the movie started, i had to go to the pharmacy to buy my flu n coughing medicine, which cost me $23!!!!! :'( $$ gone just like that.. hmm.. i didnt want to buy any medicine in the first place, but hey, if i hadnt, dont know what would happen now.. even now i'm still having a bit of flu and mucus..eww.. hehe.. and a bit of headache.. :( hmm.. yeah, back to the movie.. well, to me, it wasnt much surprise as i'd read the book before watching it.. so it was just a "visual view" of the book.. *wink* if u liked the book, u'd like the movie, and so forth.. eheh.. i personally like the author's work (no arguments welcomed, Thank You), so u do the maths. anyways.. what else happened that day.. cant really remember.. hmmm...

Wednesday (24-05-06): School observation was on as usual.. it's our second final week.. uwaaa.. i know i'll miss the school (errr.. more like, the STUDENTS! ahahahah).. :P Anyways, our schedule was so packed for the two days, our teacher in charge put us for observation for every period, and it was very tiring (and boring..) hehe.. that afternoon we went for badminton club again, i guess he (the teacher in charge) must've figured that we loved badminton club than other meetings so he decided to just assign us for the club.. *wink* and of course, we (the five of us) played badminton again this week! hehee.. this time we finally knew the boys' names (remember, there were two boys, one Pakistani, and another was Indian, and they're best friends..?) yeah.. so the Pakistani boy's name's Sameer, and the Indian's was Narman.. (o ya.. i made a mistake by calling Sameer "sumit" coz i really thought that was his name! haha! he mustve thought i was ..absurd?!-i apologized to him by the way and i think he understood coz he said it was okay *wink*)hehe... the games were great, coz sameer and narman were so funny.. they make really good jokes (and jokers too!ahahah) they're really good students, like, u know, good students! they respect teachers, and their other friends, they're smart, etc.. :) very nice characteristics they have.. May God Bless them in their future undertakings.. i believe they'll do well in their life.. p/s: they insisted that we'd have a tournament next week coz it's our final week! hehe..

Thursday (25-05-06): Another packed day for school observation.. i had 3 japanese classes, 2 english classes, and a maths lesson.. one of the english classes was extension 2 with Clavell. he's one of the boys i told you about, who was doing a documentary, he's one is on the homeless people around Sydney.. :) One thing i noticed is that he'd only look at ME when answering miss Stavert's questions! i couldnt do anything else but just nod, and give that "yes..exactly.. interesting..ooo.. yes.." - look.. hehe.. like, as if i were sooo interested and really understand what he was saying (actually, i was!) .. ehem..i find him pretty ..good looking.. :P he's one of the boys who caught OUR attention when we first came there u see.. hehee... :P Anyways, after coming back from Normanhurst, around 7 pm we went for Gloria Jeans (it was a 7-8 pm "Buy one free one" offer.. so we had to choose that time).. i had Tim Tam (as usual!) mel had Loco Coco , Afzan- Mocca something.. Dharani - Hot Chocolate.. hehe.. i still had cold drink even though i was still coughing (but it was getting better mind you..).. on the way back we had to run after the courtesy Van.. :P what an exercise.. hehee...!

Friday (26-05-06): Hmm.. yesterday was just another ordinary Friday..went for classes.. and it was cold.. ermm... what else oh.. i bought Zinger Lap Meal from KFC.. Zinger burger and fries for lunch, chicken piece and rice+coleslow for my dinner.. and then went for Powerhouse hillsong.. after the service ended, i bought a cup of white hot chocolate.. :P coz the weather was very very cold you see.. i did manage to talk to a couple of new people, two guys, one was from south korea, and another was a Malaysian.. (either they're just so shy, or just sombong.. they didnt seem to be interested in talking to other people besides themselves!) hmm.. -_-" anyways.. came back, then online for while.. and mum called before i slept..hmm.. one of my aunties from my longhouse had passed away, two weeks ago, and my mum didnt want to tell me coz she was afraid i'd be too shocked.. in fact, i was when i got the news.. it's just..so sudden.. i knew she wasnt sick, she was so healthy! she would always come to our "bilik" when my family "balik kampung".. and now, she's gone..i KNOW i'll feel that.. "emptiness" , her absence.. *sigh*.. but you know what.. this morning, i woke up, thinking bout that, and i thought.. "maybe uncle (her husband, passed away last year, or last two years, i think..) saw from above that she was lonely..and decided to "call" her to him.. :) i really think it that way..i hope they'd see each other up there.. *wink*

Well... that's all for this week's update..nothing much to write about.. coz nothing much interesting happened ..eehee.. whatever it is, i am loooking forward to the holidayssss..!! TWO WEEKS more!!! har har har harhrah rahrarhah rhrharhahr hra...!!!! -Ciao!

Week 10 for First Semester..

2006-05-19T17:41:00.000+08:00

Well..cant believe it.. it's already Week 10 of the first semester..which means that there's 3 weeks more left for the semester to end!"Yahoo..!" is not exactly the right phrase to use now, since i have 4 more major assignments to do..! "ergghh~!!!" is the more suitable one.. hehe.. anyways, below will be highlights on this week's happenings..:

Monday- 15/05/06: Went to see Jean Brick for my Ling 340 assignment/presentation confirmation.. was supposed to meet her at 10 am, but she got at her office at 10.10..didnt spend too long meeting her, the most was for 10 mins, i think..since it was almost just 10.20am when we were done, i thought i could just attend Laura's for the 10 am slot, and it was alright, she didnt seem to mind.. :) Though of course i dont intend to make it a habit, coming almost half an hour for her session.. Anyways, i skipped Ling 312 that evening, and went to the library instead..Came back from library around 7 plus, after looking for the sources for my second Educ 390 assignment. I think i had paratha for dinner that night.. yea..

Tuesday- 16/05/06: If we were in Malaysia, it would have been Teacher's Day and there would be wishes here and there in the media.. but of course, it's just another ordinary day here in Australia.. and so it was for me as well.. My housemates and I went to TEPIT centre to do our ICDL test (PC) and it took us around 2 hours to complete the tasks. We had to use Microsoft Word, Excel, and Powerpoint.. hey, i dont use these everyday, u see.. so dont give me that silly "what?! TWO hours for those peanuts!?" look although i cant see u. -_-" Then i bought my lunch at SAM Bar, and we (Izan, Fiza and I) had our lunch at MC. Followed by a drinking session at Gloria Jeans, where i had my favourite, Violet Crumble.. :D so delicious~!! And after that we headed back to the campus for Ling 340.. came back, had paratha again for dinner. hehe..

Wednesday- 17/05/06: Went for school observation.. (we had a terrible experience during our train journey to Normanhurst in the morning.. we had to take FOUR different trains just to get to ONE destination because we got on the wrong trains for TWO times! haha!) anyways, we had three lesson observations, two were quite boring, coz the teacher was boring! ergh~ i think he's 50 plus, teaching French...so boring..! hehe.. and then we observed an English lesson, and the teacher used a cartoon version of Macbeth to introduce the class to the play as it was the first lesson for the Shakespear's play.. it was pretty interesting, coz we did Macbeth in our foundation year, so it was like a walk down memory lane.. hehe! (p/s: we did Macbeth when we were 18/19 yrs old, these boys are doing it in Year 8! 14 years old!) wah! Anyways, after the lesson finished, our teacher in charge sent us to the errr.. jeez, i forgot whats the name of the court we went to...it's a building with a few basketball and badminton courts.. We went for Badminton Club, and got to play with a couple of students, and boy, it WAS FUN!! seriously! hehe! Who would've thought we'd play with the students??hehe! but they were sporting, and seriously, it was a good game, coz all that matters was for the racquette to hit the shuttlecock..hahah! Thank goodness the "train incident" didnt happen again when we went back home to epping station..hehe..we got home safe.. and i had a terrible headache when i got back.. (o ya, i submitted my assignment a day earlier than the deadline, coz i had a feeling i had to send it earlier)..back to headache..more like a migrane, it was on the right side..i thought my eyes would pop out of the sockets!coz it was sooo painful~! so i called dad around 7 pm plus, almost 8pm,and told him that i felt so sick and wanted to sleep early..and he told me to go to sleep right after that, and that mom wont call that evening (since she wasnt back from school at that time).. so i took two panadols, and drifted to deep slumber from 8 pm till 6 am next morning..

Thursday- 18/05/06: Yesterday was Normanhurst's Athletics Carnival..it's Sports Day for the Malaysian Context. It was held at Pennant Hills, one station before the school.. and we didnt have any problem in getting to the stadium coz we followed one of the Year 12 boys who was on his way to the stadium that morning.. (p/s: the Year 12 boy, who's jersey was written "Koblerone" on his back, is OH-SO-CUTE!).. anyways, Afzan and the others were the timekeepers, and Dharani and I were the track judges.. Which means, we were in the middle of the field THE WHOLE DAY. hehe.. but we did go for our lunch break (free burger for the teachers)..watching the boys running were both fun and interesting.. (fun- for the small ones, interesing, especially for the Year 12s.. wahh~~~!).. The best part was when i had to hand the stick to one of the cute guys who got number 4 in the race ("here, you're number 4, well done")..hehehee!!by the time we got back home, we were all so tired (from the previous day's badminton, and the day's standing on feet on the field one whole day).. I slept at 9pm last nite...

Friday (Today)- 19/05/06: Nothing much happened today.. Went for class in the morning, came back, and did my laundry.. YESSS... my long-almost-forgotten laundry..ehehhee..!luckily, everything went smoothly, i had two washing machines, and two dryers for myself.. and my clothes got dried on time.. ;) While waiting for my laundry to finish, i spent my time onlining, and joined anakdomba.com .. met a few new acquaintances.. ebby and ryan (he's the webmaster if i'm not mistaken).. ebby's from bintulu, and she's my age..i'd say that she has a nice personality.. :) ryan's my senior from my ex-school and is a bully.hehe.. nah..he's funny.. ;) i'm looking forward to meet more people there, and get involved more in the web portal.. i figure that it's a good place to hang out, sharing with others about Christianity... :) Alright then.. it's 8.16 pm now.. and i'm already feeling a bit sleepy..maybe gonna surf a bit, or watch tv..or whatever it is..hehe.. Planning to go to the library tomorrow.. we shall see.. hehehe! *wink* Good nite! Oyasuminasai!

Busy! Busy!

2006-05-15T19:57:00.000+08:00

The Weekend
hmmm.. didnt really do anything important last Saturday and Sunday..eh..important isnt the word..i should've used "productive" hehe..didnt do my laundry..what more to say my assignments~! erghzz~~! anyways..latest update bout my brother..tak jadi pergi matric labuan...he's going to UM instead..yeah~!Thank God..it's a program persediaan asasi sains fizikal..i think it's something like matric too, but it's just that upon completing this one, the students will automatically pursue their degree at UM after that..although i know he's quite disappointed bout the petronas thing..mum and I believe that everything happens for a reason.. :) hehe.. whatever it is, i thank God for giving this chance to my brother, and hope that He will be with him and guide him in his life.. ;)

Sunday- hmm..morning went to TCM (Trinity Chapel Macquarie)..and it was Mother's Day..'twas alright anyways..and then went to do some grocery shopping, bought vege, chicken, etc..ergh~! which reminds me that i have to finish my chicken n meat in 3 weeks time! and also a reminder that i'm COMING HOME SOON!hehehehehe!! waa~! waa~! wuooo.. which also means..that i've got to finish my assignments soon..!adui~!! i have, 2 major assignments for bilingualism (each 2500 words), one major assignment for my educ (also 2500 words), and one major assignment for another linguistics unit..

Monday
Today- it was raining this morning..and the whole day had been drizzling and cloudy and a cold..such a.."morbid" mood.. hehe.. strong word... i mean glum... it's so..lifeless today..in fact, i've been feeling quite..not happy this past few days.. hmm.. miss my DV so much.. so very much.. :'( :'( hmm.. arghh~~!! o ya.. allowance is finally in today, which means i'm able to pay my ticket tomorrow.. (the deadline is tomorrow) without borrowing anyone's $$$.. :) Thank God again.. skipped my bilingualism class today, but went to library instead..and started my reflective writing (due this Thursday, and i might have to hand it in on Wednesday coz of the school observation).. hmmm.. eee..!i decide to stop whining bout my assignments..coz, the more i complain and whine, there's nothing much i can do but to ACTUALLY DO THEM! yeah..so,i suppose,just shut up for the time being huh..just do what has to be done..and be done with it!!oh dear~~!!! Please God, help me to go through these moments of tension, pressure and distress! I really need you..!and i miss him too.. aduiiii..!!!!

Ok lah..it's a short one this time..a bit sleepy..tomorrow i'm going to do my ICDL test (something i have to complete for my educ unit..)..goodnite world.. mizz u.! *

Tired.

2006-05-11T16:30:00.000+08:00

Yesterday and today are by far the most tiring days for this week.. So tired in fact i can hardly keep my eyes open right at this moment.. :(

Yesterday (10-05-06): Woke up at 5.30. First day for my 4-weeks school observation program at Normanhurst Boys High School. We were SO early that when we got there, only one teacher was there. And she's the "cultural liason" for us, coz she's a Malaysian..she's a very friendly lady, and teaches Maths, which is her favourite subject by the way.. So she took us to her staffroom, and then by 8 plus, our teacher-in-charge, the head-teacher, Mr. Rod Miller came and met us and took us around to meet the staff (the principal n teachers), and stationed us at the library.. and then he took us for a tour around the school.

And that was when i tripped for the first time for the day. (yes, i tripped more than once in one day). guess i just have to accept i'm a total clutz after all! D'you want to know how it happened? Well, earlier that morning, i HAD a bad feeling bout my shoes.. they felt quite.. slippery, i mean, the "tapak" seemed slippery on some surfaces.. But i just shrugged the thought off and thought everything would be alrite. And of course i was wrong. We were walking on the pavement at the school compound, and there were small sticks on the ground, and all of a sudden i tripped forward, falling on my knees. At first of course i felt embarassed, but few minutes later, i just buat selamber. hehe.. I just thought "okay. good." (sarcastically, of course). And my knees bled. BLoody hell. I had to bear the pain throughout the day at the school, coz (of course) i didnt have any dettol or plaster with me.

By afternoon, everything went by fine at the school.. we had a couple of lesson observations, and went to Epping Boys High School coz it was the sports day (they have sports day every wednesday, by the way). We watched the table tennis tournament for an hour plus, and headed on home on foot, coz the school was only around 30 mins walk to MUV. This is when i tripped for the second time.. It was almost, 10 mins before we got to MUV, and the pathway was sloping downwards (it's a hill-y area).. and sreettt..! once again, i tripped, on my knees. I just looked at Mel and Afzan, and just like me, they couldnt believe it happened AGAIN on the same day! thats when i screamed "FCUK! BABi!!" i was smiling at that time by the way, coz i just couldnt believe what happened to me that day! So the three of us continued our journey heading back home...and i cleaned my cut, and put on dettol n plaster after that..

Then i had to go to STA (travel agent) at my campus to book my flight. And of course, i thought everything was settled, the airfare was a good price, and i thought that was a good offer.. but of course, good things are just too good to be true in my case. First, i was told that i have to pay by next monday, which meant i only have 3 working days to get the money to pay my ticket.. or else, my seat will be given away! hmm.. i was so worried that night, and called mum and told her bout the price (of course i told her bout the tripping incident...and we laughed our heads off..hehe).. so she told me that she and my dad would bank in some money to my bank today morning, and hopefully i'll b able to get the money by monday itself.. Before i slept last night i thought i would just call the travel agent to ask if its possible if i make my payment by credit card..

TODAY (11-05-06): "ter" woke up around 3 am. My coursemate's aussie friend (by the way, my coursemate is my neighbour of the opposite house) was drunk, and ther were a few of them, i think, and i'm sure they were drunk. Stupid bitch. it was THREE O'CLOCK in the MORNING, and she was calling out my coursemates' names outside the footpath, which is IN FRONT OF MY ROOM. My window was closed, DUH...but i am not DEAF. I can hear very clearly any kind of sound at night, coz i am a very light sleeper. And this BITCH was screaming, DRUNK, and woke me up when i was sleeping! goddamn it..memang betul la..orang putih memang KURANG AJAR.celaka. babi! sial! hmm.. apa gik.. adui.. this kind of people are borned just to make others SIN by getting angry at them.. May God "bless" them. I was too tired to get up and scream back "shut up!", i would have, if i were really in the mood to be angry.. but like i said, i was tired last nite.. so i decided to continue my sleep with rasa benci and dendam, which occassionally comes back everytime i think bout it.. we'll see what happens tonite.

This morning i woke up at 6 am. Coz we decided that yesterday was a bit too early, so we agreed to get a later bus and train to Normanhurst. Everything was okay by the way..a few lesson observations before a long break.. and during that break, i thought i'd call the travel agent to ask if i could make my payment using credit card. I was surprised, and upset, when the agent told me that he made a mistake, and that the airfare he told me was not valid for the date that i chose yesterday!!! argh...i was angry, but i just couldnt get angry at him on the spot... i guess it's just not my day after all. wasted my bloody credit just to get that "good" news. so i asked him what's the other way, and suggested SIA (s'pore airlines), but i'd have to spend overnight at s'pore's international airport if i were to take that flight. After that conversation, i hung up and asked mum to call me, and told her everything.. She was surprised as well.. but told me not to worry too much, perhaps i should just change the date to 35 days instead of the two months i asked for (NO WAY!) or other alternatives available...after the call ended, i was still upset, and bought TWO sausage rolls, and one sushi, and told my friends "i eat a lot when i'm angry".. :) hehe.. and it's true!I actually felt better after eating..!hehee..

The rest of the day went on pretty well, i didnt trip anywhere today, thank God. And our lesson observations went fine.. we watched a few scenes from King Lear & Julius Caesar by Shakespear, for Grades 12 and 9. I find King Lear totally indigestable.. but Julius Caesar was okay..hehe.. i dont know.. it's.. Shakespear, dude.. hahah!Apart from all this, i managed to come back on time to meet my travel agent, and rearranged my flight (and of course, have to pay extra airfare.. )..

The School : Normanhurst Boys High School
- it's a selective boys high school in NSW.. one of the best schools.. ermm.. around, 90% are from NESP (non-english speaking) background, but they're either born in Australia, or grew up in australia, which means they're basically australians.. :) A few cute students from Year 12 (18 years old).. *wink* have i mentioned it's a selective school? meaning every student was selected prior to entry based on their primary school results, i guess. and they are SMART, i tell you. Come on, can u possibly show me one 14-year-old Malaysian boy who reads Dan Brown's Digital Fortress??? or any 18 year old student who makes his/her own documentary on social/political issues?? or any 15 yr old malaysian student who reads Julius Caesar? huh.. they're education syllabus is absolutely way advanced than what one can find in malaysia. anyways.. further information on Normanhurst Boys High School is available by clicking this link: Normanhurst Boys High School

NOW: 7.23 pm, 11/05/06.. Hmm.. been waiting for my DV to come online.. but seems that he has some serious problems with his office's pc..

and i'm feeling sooo tired.. -_- ZZzzz.. hehe.. might sleep early tonight, got a class tomorrow morning.. and i've got SO MANY assignments to be done by next month!arrghh!! and i'm wondering, what kind of LECTURER who gives her email address, but NEVER replies your email when u email her? Hmm.. dont want to talk too much.. anyways.. i guess that's it for this couple of days.. ;)

I Love.. I Hate..

2006-05-09T09:44:00.000+08:00

Upon reading the news today..came across one on Mawi, the ever-oh-so-popular artist in Malaysia,who claimed that his next target would be the Asian entertainment market. Meaning he is planning to break through the local industry and expand his "success" outwards around Asia..Blablablabla..well,i'm not goin to talk about MAWI of course..but i just got the idea for my next post, "I love.. I Hate..", of which i'll list out my likes and dislikes.. *wink*

I LOVE....

music. - The first thing i'd do when i wake up is reach to my radio/clock which is on the small drawer next to my bed and switch it on to "TodayFM"..Well, if i were in malaysia, it would've been "Hitzfm" or at least "Radio4" in Miri..hehe..i just need to listen to the radio, the songs..and thennn.. i'll feel alive and awake! The only time i'll switch my radio off is when i go to sleep, or..when i need a moment of silence, which is,of course..RARELY.hehee..most of the time the radio gives "life" to my room.. :D I'd listen to almost all kinds of music there is..ANYTHING..*except if they're by my least favourite singers (which will b explained in detail in the "I hate.." section..).. *wink* Give me anything from Elvis, Beatles, the 60's..70's..80's..90's..pop, funk, rock, new age, ballads, solo, bands, boybands, duos, groups, any language, English, Iban, Indon, Malay, Hindi, Tamil, Japanese, Korea, Dutch, Italian, i'll listen to them..as long as the * condition applies.. ;)
movies. - If i were rich, i'd go to the cinema every single week..but..what the heck, i only have $280 per month..minus $50 for phone bills, $230 left.. less than $60 per week..groceries?food?etc..huhu~!one movie would cost me $9, considering i have to watch it every Tuesday, coz thats the "cheap ticket" day..$9 i can use to buy lunch and dinner for one day..!hehe.. conclusion: i hardly watch any movie at the cinema since i've been here. But my love for movies is still as crazy as ever!Well i'd watch anything from romance, comedies, animated movies, SOMETIMES action/thriller, HARDLY (but not never) anything to do with the space/alien/sci-fi stuff..hehe..i guess u can say i'd watch anything..:p but the first few in the list were of course, my favourite ones..I watch movies to relax myself, humour/entertain myself, just to get the good feeling, u know..not to get tension or pressured caused by the tough psycho-conflicts that u can find in the movie "Saw". Call me..a simpleton..whatever it is..i just dont like complicated things or twists!hehehe..!hmm..lately,due to SOMEONE's influence with HIS movie interests, i wont be surprised if my movie preferences would change in the future..*wink* :)
Anime.- I love japanese anime.I promised myself, once upon a time, when i work, every month i'll buy one japanese anime dvd box set!I was in my first year degree when i bought my first anime dvd set, and it cost me RM240 ..hehe..and i NEVER regret it..even till today. coz to me, spending $$ for the things that u really love DOESNT matter at ALL, when u do have $$... :) My most favourite anime is Fushigi Yuugi..watched it almost 20 times, and YES.. i still CRY when the anime gets to those really heart-breaking scenes!!I also love Naruto, Ayashi no Ceres, Inuyasha, i know they're just too few to name, but hey, as i've promised myself..when i work next time..! hehee!!
Food. - hahah!yes! i love to indulge myself in the luxurious moment of savouring each taste in any kind of food from any country!Malaysian food? Indian? Chinese? Japanese? KOrean (coming soon?) hehe..but of course, MALAYSIAN food is NUMBER ONE!what are my favourites? i love rendang!pansuh ayam, (oo)! sweet sour pork! hainan chicken rice!lamb kourma..!nyam nyam~!! hehee..!i had a serious eating disorder, together with my sleeping disorder last winter, but not this year babe! i'm not going to "damage" myself anymore this year!i'm coming back to malaysia this winter..and i'm gonna feed myself real well, gonna treat myself (and my appetite) real good..! hak hak!!i love to eat..and i KNOW how to look after myself, you dont have to bother advising me, coz healthy DOESNT mean FAT! note: i really hate it when people try to tell u that u need to control your diet, etc..like, HELLO,if u feel uncomfortable looking at me, DONT look! u can just $%^ off! (hmm.. a bit emotional here..sensitive me..hehe.)

I HATE...

Insects. - anything with 6 feet, or.. without any feet ( referring to worms, snakes, caterpillars, -pedes).. UUURRGGGHHh~~~~i reeeeelllyyyy hate themmm!!!

Politics. - dont care what u call me..i hate politics since..since the first time i heard of it!!Told u i hate complicated stuff. I dont like to THINK or CARE bout things that are impersonal to me..I prefer things just the way they are. You talk bout reformation, disappointment, dissatisfaction, but in the end, you end up at the same bloody point!U voice out your opinion, and then what? where are u going with that?governing your own country?hahah!u wish!so, conclusion: i hate politics. INFINITY.words means nothing without actions. point taken? good.
Over-reacting "Mutant".- a phrase i use with my DV (a.k.a Yoda). Refers to some freak/jerk/pig in "somewhere" (place anonymous to protect privacy)..The kind of person who purposely make others angry, who thinks he's so bloody good (my buntut ayam u are), whose comments are so freaking selfish, and another thing, who IMs you @ YM and talks bout how many times he screws his then-gf-now-fiance per week..!I just cant find any other word to describe this.. this.. CREATURE besides "PIG". I'm so sorry that i have to insult the real pigs here..i think even pigs are better creatures than this..B@$t@rD!hmm..there.i guess that's the right word. I know the YM thing was a small itsy-bitsy thing..but hey, i have my own reasons to hate THE PIG. I am against "The kind of person who purposely make others angry, who thinks he's so bloody good", TOTALLY.
Loud People.- i know hate is a strong word. Perhaps for this one, the term "dont really like" is more suitable.. I dont like loud speakers, as well as non-stop speakers. They just go on and on and on about things u are so NOT INTERESTED in, like, talking bout THEMSELVES.. and they have this.. high-pitch voice, which when they talk, EVERYONE can hear them..jeezz..i really cant stand this kind of people. So bloody irritating. So what do i do when i encounter these situations? Either i get out from the circle/group, or i'll listen to my mp3, shut the un-wanted voices off with the loud music in my ears.. heheh...
Drunkards. - well. now that i got to this point, now i remember why i wanted to write this blog earlier on. Last nite, 1.25 am, A.M., like, ONE O'CLOCK IN THE MORNING, and i was sleeping.. like a baby.. i was woken up by the voices of some.. B!tch and B@$t@rDs who were drunk around our village! Bloody idiots!!!! THe girls were screaming names, or were saying something loudly, and the guys were SINGING some "OH my darling clementine" song..WHEN IT WAS ONE O'CLOCK IN THE MORNING AND EVERYTHING WAS QUIET BEFORE THAT. i wouldnt say that everyone had slept at that time, but i know that it was QUIET and PEACEFUL before those.. PIGS came back!babi! aaa...!luckily.. Thank God..it was only for.. 5-10 mins that they were noisy, but the point is, THEY WOKE ME UP FROM MY SLEEP.ifffff.. i tell you.. ifff they hadnt stopped, and i couldnt sleep last nite, i swear, i would've came out from my house and SCREAMED "SHUT UPPP!!!!"..haaaa...one thing i really "pantang" is that, being waken up from my sleep by unnecessary noises..i bet my ex-roomates all know how particular i am about this issue..-_- ..
- anyways, back to my point. Drunkards. Yeah, Hate them. really2 hate them. Can u possibly tell me the positive outcomes of being drunk? I know a family whose dad almost got killed by his own son coz he was drunk one night, and smashed his son's pc. Positive? I know a mother who couldnt get herself up when her baby was hungry for her breast milk coz she was drunk. Positive? I know a man hated by his own children bcoz of his drinking habits. Positive? I know couples who sleep with other people's husbands/wives bcoz they were drunk. Positive? When you're drunk, YOU HAVE NO SENSE OF THE WORLD around you. You dont remember God, You dont remember Yourself, You dont remember your family, you dont remember anything!!!!Worse, some people, when they're drunk, they'd TALK NONSENSE and these.. nonsense sometimes hurt people's feelings. POSITIVE?! u tell me! When you're drunk, and u're out of control, u look like CRAP.and u act like one piece of crap. honestly. hmm. THere is nothing wrong with drinking a little bit of wine, tuak, champagne, beer, whatever u call it. But why must you let that drinking control you?! makes no freaking sense at all..
Over-publicized Artists/Entertainers. - know why i call them over publicized? coz they dont deserve the publicity they get. And looking back at my introduction earlier, i'm sure u'd guess who i'm talking about here. This.. whole.. sms voting, to vote the best performer, has become, voting for the most.. popular (POPULAR FOR WHAT?!!!) person.. i find it so.. degrading. The person that was voted.. won, of course. And i seriously doubt its because of his TALENT in singing. WHY? I FEEL NOTHING when i listen to him singing!! His.. voice.. is just like ANY GUY's voice u can pick up by the footpath! jeeezz!!! Vote him becoz he's good looking? Have u guys seen CHIMPANZEES? seriously. Rezeki, my friend told me. Huh.. at least that cools me down everytime ter-think about this "artist". I guess so. But hey, doesnt change my perspective that he SUCKS. :)

Life's like this.. u meet so many kinds of people, u see many different kinds of people, and everything happens for a reason.. life is short. These things that u like or dislike.. they make your life.. colourful.. hahah!they give you experience.. :)

Paper art..? NEVER!

2006-05-05T11:41:00.000+08:00

Huhu.. i cannot believe what happened to me the last 12 hours actually happened to me.. No,nothing so BOGUS or BIG happened..but to me, it was.. err..wont say it's a disaster, coz i managed to handle everything in the end..and everything turned out alright.. *wink* Thank God indeed..yeah, so this.. paper art business..it was my turn for micro teaching presentation this morning, and i surely had well-planned my lesson this whole week.. i was planning to teach "how to make a tissue bauble"..i did try it before i decided on it, and i thought "well, it seems okay, just a bit of improvement, shouldnt be any problem", so i went and planned my lesson (lesson plan- objectives, activities, targeted outcomes, etc.) and bought all the stuff i needed. u know, paper crepe, glue stick.. cost me like, more than $10..!

And so it happened one lucky day, YESTERDAY, everything well planned, and i was trying to make my own tissue bauble, ONE WHOLE DAY and after 5 pathetic s0-incomplete baubles.. i gave up..i just couldnt go on..it was 11 pm at night, and there i was, sitting among a bunch of crepe papers, scissors, cards, glue stick, and so-called-baubles.. *cry*.. i broke down, man..i totally broke down..my mum called, and i was trying to sound okay, like nothing's wrong, but i just couldnt hold it..i cried while i was talking to her, told her that everything was wrong..and mum told me that she'd try to think of something and would call me back a few mins after that..

While waiting for her, i dont know how, but i just felt..so.."guided" and so "right" that i decided to choose "world continents" for my new lesson!i drew out the outline, like, what would i do (lesson plan, activities, info from the internet, etc..) ..and by the time mum called me back with her suggestion, i told her i got mine..hehe..and she said i should go for my idea..hehe..yeah, so after that, i worked out my new lesson plan, planned my worksheet.. (talk about the REAL time when internet is REALLY needed!!fuhh~! hehehe)..yeah, so by 1 am, everything was alright, i decided to wake up by 7.30 am and go to the library the next day (today) and print n photostate everything and look for a map.. hehe.. gosh..

So what happened was, i managed to print out my stuff, and photostated them, got "tersangkut" for a while when i wanted to borrow the world map from the library (luckily it was just a smalll matter, and i got it..) hehe.. and i presented my micro teaching in a fine way.. :) well, not excellent (duh.. it was totally LAST MINUTE work, dude.. what do u expect?) but overall, i was satisfied.. :) hehee.. hmm.. if i were to continue on with my paper art demonstration, i bet it would've been a TRAGIC day of HUMILIATION for me huh.. God really knows how and what i should be doing huh.. akai..hehe.. anyways, apart from my poor closing/summary for my lesson (2/5), everything was rated as 3 0r 4 out of 5.. :) which i am so grateful for.. phewwzz~!!

Conclusion? NO MORE PAPER ART FOR ME.. its just not me man.. i mean, i really, dont.. there's no.. synonym with Val & Origami or Paperart.. or whatever Art there is..except music.. i believe, i do have "something" for music art, but NOT that paper/drawing kind of stuff.. hehe.. :p

RD.com is backk!! hoorayy~!!

2006-05-04T10:43:00.000+08:00

Hear yee! hear yee!! RD.com is back!! hueuheuehue~!happy banget pulak rasa!hahah!my most usual lepaking place is back!!yeayy~!! congrats to uncle UK for bringing it back, and thanks for bringing the happiness of foruming back to us!! *wink*!

Demi Waktu - videoclip

2006-05-03T08:05:00.000+08:00

Hye.. hehe.. so we're back again to the song.. n this time i've included the videoclip for everyone's viewing..err..to those using dial-up, sorry, u just have to patient to wait for the whole thing for loading.. hehe..

Ha... have u watched it till finish?yup, as u can see, the v'clip really explains the song in a whole other way than how i or some others might have interpreted it before watching the video. It was about how the guy has to deal with his mixed feelings towards his new girl, and his DEAD girlfriend/wife/lover...haa..that explains EVERYTHING in a really good way.. :) He couldnt let go of his feelings towards his dead girl, but at the same time he met another new one, and he just felt so guilty. crying in front of his girl's cemetery. uhuuu.. uwaaa~!! that is SAD, dude..ergghh~~~and the girl in white dress, i firstly thought she was the new girl..but in the end,thennnn i figured out she WAS THE DEAD GIRL..uhuh..in a sense that it was her spirit that was with him when he was crying at her cemetery..uwaa..~~!!so sadddd yuuu..~!!!sobsobsob..akai..awal2 pagi sedey2 like this..cannot la babe.hehehe.. :p ah, ungu best banget!!!!young voc- ehem! :p hehehee..apa2pun, emmm..feels good that i've really understood the real message of the song! ;)

No more rd.com.. :'(

2006-05-02T07:53:00.000+08:00

I posted a blog this morning about "rd.com down again.." n i thought that everything would be fine and back to normal soon..but noo..i was so wrong..uncle James, the domain owner,decided to call it a stop~uwaaa..!no more rd.com..no more foruming with bro BE, BEL, RA, reading funny jokes from other forumers, reading interesting topics by others..uwaaa..!!!Uncle James, in his blog,

uchukeling.com , announced that he's stopping the web portal today after attacks from denial of service-thing..even the planned June Gathering in Miri is cancelled..feel so sorry to uncle James, for he has tried his best to keep rd.com going on all this while, but i guess this time it has reached the limits. "blessed" those people who caused such unhappiness not only to uncle James, but other forumers as well. True, there are other "friendly domains" that we can chat/forum at, but honestly, i will never feel the "friendliness" i've felt when foruming with other rd.com forumers at any other place!uwaa!!!hmm..luckily i met my Yoda earlier before this happened.. :p (hehe..sempat gik ya..) otherwise..fuh..!see uncle James?how much your portal means to me?n i believe to others too..God bless uncle James and my other forum friends..thank you, you guys, for everything we've shared in rd.com all this while!!i will miss rd.com!uwaaaaa!!!

Building the Spiritual Muscle

2006-04-29T08:10:00.000+08:00

Like any other Friday nights, yesterday's night at Hillsong's Powerhouse was awesome. The guest speaker of the night was Pastor Robert Fergusson, (from U.K.)and he gave us a sermon on "Building the Spiritual Muscle",using the human muscle as the (metaphor?) to resemble our "spiritual muscle".

According to Pastor Robert, there are three reasons why Christians are weak spiritually:

Upbringing - It is all about how we are brought up, our background, and the environment we live in. Our upbringing is the encouragement, the footstone, in our journey in Christian fellowship. :)
Fear- sometimes we are scared of what people might think of us when we do something. In this case, we might be scared that people will condemn us, criticize us, "perli" us when we go to church.
Purposelessness- There are many of us out there who are still "lost",not knowing the purpose of their lives. They dont see the purpose that God has planned for them, and therefore they dont see the reason to join the fellowship, or work towards it.

There are six simple and essential steps that we can take to strengthen our spiritual selves:

Birth: "i dont let my past determine my future"- some of us are born in a horrible background. Or in some cases, been living in a black past. It is time to DECIDE that you are ready to make a difference in your life. It is time to DECIDE to step out from the "darkness" around you. On the other hand, some of us are born in a Christian family, and DRIFT along with our daily lives. Stop drifting, and DECIDE to do MORE with what you already are! Decide that YOU WILL BE STRONGER!
Life: "i dont drive dangerously anymore"-here,pastor Robert was telling us of his story how he nearly hit two children in the middle of the road when he was going on a high-speed drive on a curb (and he told us he had a really "unforgettable" conversation with the children's mother in the middle of the road..hehe..)- All things grow from the inside. As living things, we REPRODUCE, and we EXCRETE. and we GROW.It is part of the growing process. a) Reproduce: There is no meaning in attending the church, without any development in oneself, or bringing development to the fellowship. As Christians, we must do more than what we have done, i.e. doing more than just being a common church goer.. :) b) Excrete: (pastor Robert actually told us to think about this when we're in the toilet next time! hahah!)- In our daily lives, we excrete to get rid of the poison/toxic in our bodies. If we keep them, we'll get sick. Therefore, we must remove the poisons from our systems. It is the same with our life problems. We have to DEAL with our problems in order to be healthy spiritually. Our problems are our "poisons" spiritually. So we must solve/deal with them, to move on forward with our journey with our Lord. c) Growth: Growing means CHANGING from time to time. As our bodies grow older, our spiritality must grow stronger as well... :) We must VALUE LIFE.
Diet: "no more unhealthy food for me"- There are so many "unhealthy", "bad", and "negative" things around us that we dont necessarily take, but we do. Just like how unhealthy food like really2 sweet candies cause us to be sick after taking them, that is how these "poisons" destroy or poison our spiritual lives!Pastor Robert took Pornography as an example, and there are many other examples that weakens our faith, and our beliefs. We MUST decide WHAT we want to take! Do we want to be ill (spiritually)? If not, DECIDE to take only what's healthy for us, what's good for us, what's positive to us. Do not poison yourself. :)
Hormones: "i dont let a day go by without taking stimulants"- Figure out what makes you or what do you need to grow/inspire you. Just like how we take vitamins everyday for our sytems, it is important to feed on the spiritual stimulants to keep on growing!We dont take vitamins only once, we take them over and over. We keep on taking them, until we are strong. Feed on God's word (the Bible), and pray to Him EVERYDAY. That is how we grow in our fellowship with him. :)
Attitude: "i dont belief in people who used to put me down anymore!"- Dont listen to the stuff that you shouldn't believe. Instead, ignore these things that says you are incapable of doing anything, but LISTEN TO HIM, who says that you are GIFTED with so many capabilities in order to serve his fellowship! Change your attitude, you CAN DO IT!
Exercise: "i dont see exercising as bad"- in other words, dont see DIFFICULTIES as bad/negative. Take it as a challenge to grow stronger! To deal with these challenges, and moving on to the next stage is important to build our spiritual strength. We need to be stretched, and RESIST. Criticisms aren't bad, or curt. They make us STRONGER. The Bible tells us to submit to God, resist the devil. :) As we push our way through, we get stronger. Set your goals, and work towards it!

*The reading for the message is from Ephesians:4.

The message that Pastor Robert delivered was to encourage us to make a DECISION, in order to build our spiritual selves. :) It was indeed a great message, and i enjoyed his sermon because he was a very interesting speaker, very straight-forward (and garang! in a good way,of course!hehe).. May the Lord help you and I in making our decisions to find our way in the journey with Christ. Amen.

Today's Daily Bread

2006-04-28T14:47:00.000+08:00

Just wanna share something i've read in Daily Bread this morning, and it made me thinking bout certain stuff..

Title: Kill the Spider-V.L. Herb (n.d.) (Reading: Matt. 5:27-30)
"We sometimes have mixed feeling about our sins. We are afraid of being hurt by them, and we want to be forgiven. But we aren't sure we want to be rid of them RIGHT NOW. A man told me(the writer of this title) he has a bad habit that is hindering his fellowship with God and hurting his Christian testimony. He says he prays that God will forgive him for his addiction-but he doesnt stop. He reminds the writer of the story about the man who often went forward at the end of church services to kneel and pray, "Lord, take the cobwebs out of my life." One Sunday morning his pastor, tired of hearing the same old prayer, knelt beside the man and cried out, "Lord, kill the spider!" Yes, sometimes it takes radical action to break a sinful habit. We need to to more than ask God for cleansing each time we succumb to temptation. We must take whatever steps are needed to get the cobwebs out of our life. We must confess our sin and determine to be done with it. Then we must feed our mind with God's Word and all we can to stay away from the people and places that tempt us to sin. That's what Christ meant when He said, "If your right eye causes you to sin, pluck it out" (Matt. 5:29). Kill the spider. Get rid of the cobwebs.

Upon reading this article,i thought to myself: it's true. One can pray as much as he/she wants/can to God, but praying itself is not enough. We have to ACT in order to change ourselves from our sinful ways. It's all part of being human, working in order to get something. In this case, working to form a better-self, to cleanse one-self off the sins that has been done. As the saying goes, a journey of a thousand step begins with one. Start trying to change with small tasks, like, helping those in need, with a sincere heart. You'll feel good to know that u've helped someone! Then, as the writer says, feed our minds with the Word of God (the Bible). This is where I personally find my guidance, my peace, myself. Always remember to "talk" to God wherever we are.Upon waking up, thank God for being with us when we were sleeping. Pray for his guidance in our tasks for the day. Before meal time, thank God for the food. Before a journey, pray it'd be a safe one and he'd be looking after us..Before sleeping, thank Him for being with us for the day. Ask for forgiveness..and also, if u're hurt by others, and cant seem to feel to forgive them right then,pray so that God forgives their sins.. :) I'd conclude the writer's points that in order to "cleanse" ourselves, we need to take three essential steps: ACT-READ-PRAY. :) God's will, you'll be blessed with his guidance and help.. Have faith!

Separuh Nafas by Dewa

2006-04-28T10:48:00.000+08:00

OK.. this is one of my fav Indon songs..by Dewa..erghhh..the voc,"once", he is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!!!!!hek hek!here r the lyrics:

Separuh nafas ku terbang
bersama dirimu
saat kau tinggalkanku
salahkanku

salahkah aku
bila aku bukanlah
seperti aku yang dahulu

Ada makna tergali dari sini
dari pertikaian yang terjadi

Kau hancurkan diriku
bila kau tinggalkan aku
kau Dewiku
kembalilah padaku
bawa separuh nafasku
kau Dewiku....

altho the lyrics are not that catchy, as u can see.. -_-", this time, it's the music that interests me..(usually its the lyrics that catch my attention in the first place)..like, the music, really "integrates" with the lyrics, making the song sound really good! really bah!
mm..first time listening to this song, (without watching the v'clip), i thought it sounded quite.."needy"/sad..like,the singer,left by his "Dewi" coz he's not the same person as he was before, and since she's gone, he felt.."incomplete" (separuh nafas/separuh nyawa/separuh..incomplete la kan?)..
should we leave that person just coz she/he isnt the same person anymore? to me, it depends. if he's changed in a positive way, whyyyy on earth would i leave him?but, if he changes towards the "dark side" (eheh~)..well, sometimes, we have to do stuff for our own good rite?
the good change: well, if he's changed in a good way, what else there is to do other than supporting him and be with him during these changes.. :wink:
the bad change: doesnt mean that you MUST leave him when he suddenly turns to the dark side..u dont just watch your loved one turn into someone bad, u start with giving advice..over and over..and if it doesnt work, u blackmail him! hehe..:devil: like,"if u dont change,i'm leaving!" see?at least you warn him first that u dont like what you're seeing and that it's wrong,that he must change for his good, and for everyone else's..or otherwise..leaving a loved one is painful (duh!) but hey,hello..if u're staying just coz u love him but he's not doing anything for your love, y must you be so stupid to suffer coz of the person who doesnt appreciate your love? :wink:

anyways..serious discussion for a simple song?hehe.. i love to analyze song lyrics...it's just me!

A week in Brisbane..

2006-04-25T08:51:00.000+08:00

fuhh! cant believe that i'm in the library right now, after 15 hours journey on train from brisbane the whole night. i thought i'd sleep the whole day today, but i guess i got too excited to blog about my holiday in brisbane! and yeah, i must mention, this is my first blog in multiply..and er..i might import/export some blogs from/to my friendster blog later huh..yeah, so, without wasting any more time, i'll start telling you bout the happenings in Brisbane.. :)

14th April, Friday- 15 hours train journey to queensland, brisbane..n no,of course i didnt get enough sleep on the train! it was soo uncomfortable! and there were a group of high school boys in our carriadge, and they only stopped talking when it was like, almost 12 midnite..(the journey started at 4 pm, u see..so i had plenty of time to read, then listen to my mp3, n by 10 pm, we (darina, afzan n I) were getting ready to sleep but those monkeys were just too noisy..so well, anyways, i woke up like, every two hours, expecting it had been at least four hours i've been sleeping!hissh~

15th April, Saturday- by around 8am, we got off at Brisbane central station, Hani, Leila and Che Yam fetched us..i was quite surprised to see that the city was EMPTY!then Hani told me that it's very common coz its weekend, and plus, it was only around 8 am that time..so we went to unilodge, n i stayed in Hani's room..she cooked fried rice for me that day..and later that evening we went to woolworth's, big W (to look for singlets n shorts,coz i SO FORGOT to bring those and instead brought only jeans and shirts to go out!), and then coles.. and we bought seafood platter for dinner.. later that night, i went out with afzan, leila, darina and che yam to south bank.had to cross the bridge to get to the other side, and come back by crossing another bridge.. :D walked around south bank, and through to QUT campus..and slept.. :p

16th April-Sunday.. it was Easter Sunday..i know it's Easter Sunday, n i shouldve gone to the church, but i couldnt, coz the gang decided to go to Dreamworld that day..so we went by train..one hour's journey to Helensvale, n then took a bus to Dreamworld. we got there roughly by 10 something..still early, bought our tickets and PLAYED! heheh..

first stop was the Western Theme park..after taking photos at the so-called-prison, we took a ride at the Rapid Ride- it was a ride where 6 people (in our case, it was 5 of us) sat down in a round tyre-like "basket"..and we'd drift along the water with different levels of rapid(ity?)hehehe..pardon my english!darina got a bit wet coz her seat unfortunately was the one that really "kena" air during the ride..

second ride, was the Mine Coaster-thing..we thought it wont be that thrilling, and we were wrong.. afzan couldnt stop screaming "damn it!" every shocking point of the ride! and i couldnt stop screaming as well!ahahah!!!it was a really great wake-up call after the ride..all of us were "active" hehe!

the third ride was the Water Log-ride..well, becoz only four people can fit in the "basket" (sorry, i keep calling them baskets, i just couldnt find the right word at the moment!), so afzan and i were in one basket with two mat sallehs, and darina, leila and che yam were in another basket..it was quite a slow ride in the first place..but when we FELL, we really screamed because we fell forward in such a great speed and (kecerunan?)hahah! and yes, we got wet.. leila got REALLy wet..kesian her..but we all got dried coz we walked around, and it was sunny, so.. yeah.

well, after the log ride, we stopped for a while at some shop, i had a baguette, was quite big, and not so delicious, a bit cold, but had to finish it anyway coz i paid like, almost $8 for that! then we went to the farm house..to see err..a cow, and a few lambs and sheeps, and some chicks.. o ya..some guinea pigs/hamsters too! went on to The Wiggles World..(the gang had their prayers there, and i read my Da Vinci book while waiting for them).a very colourful side of the park, coz it is, after all, meant for kids.! heehee..

after that, we went to the Nickelodeon side.took a picture with Dora, one of the characters in N'deon..and went for a ride called the Raptor.. Darina didnt join us..it was something like a roller coaster ride,but our feet wont be in the seat, instead our feet were "terjuntai"!heheehee..so it was another fun ride, n yeah, of course, WE SCREAMED..come to think of it,maybe WE were the only ones who screamed during the ride!haha!! who cares!! we had sooo much fun to care about what people think rite?

moving on to another ride, we went for a bumper car ride..aha..this time afzan was the driver..n i can see that she was so happy during the bumping times..hehe~!!

after that, afzan and I (others didnt want to join us..) went for the Reef ride , which we so regret going in the first place, coz we got sooo dizzy by the time we got off!hahah! it was something like a ferris-wheel ride, but it was soo fast, and it was going, like, 360 degrees u know!!i screamed everytime i goes uppppp there..like i thought i'd die!hahahah!! afzan just couldnt scream anymore..out of..scream..hhehehe!!it was a mad ride for both of us..

after that, i went to the Vortex ride with Che Yam and Darina..and it was another dizzying ride, but it was okay after i took a rest & some panadol & vicks rub..ehehehe...Vortex is the no-gravity ride that enables riders to climb the walls like, terangkat from the land..heheh..well then,that was our last ride, and that was my limit..but leila n che yam went for a few mild rides, while afzan and i just culdnt take anymore, we were too..yeah, dizzy!

took a few more pictures in front of some of the extreme rides..like, wipeout (ayam panggang syle), the Claw ( u swing like a pendulum).. we didnt take pictures at other extreme rides like the Cyclone (roller coaster, very fast, thats y its called Cyclone, duh!), Tower of Terror (shouldve gone,but too scared..riders will seat in the basket (around 10 ppl), and it will go at 135 km/h to 900 (or 90 kot) metres high up there!!so fast! and another one is called the Giant Drop, the same tower, but this one, riders are seated in individual seats, they'll be transported upppppp there..and with no warning the seats will DROP!! suddenly!! hahaha!! i know i'll die if i went for that one.. :p
yeah well, before we went back, we took a train ride, a tour around dreamworld, and had ice creams.. :D and later that night, we had dinner at Bombay Dhaba..a north indian restaurant..the four of us (afzan, che yam, leila and I) shared butter chicken, beef vindaloo, and chicken sindh with rice (3 bowls for leila and me, and 2 bowls for che yam and afzan!) heheh!! we were of course, so full!
17th April, Monday- afzan and the rest planned to go to Valley (where they can get Halal meat), but it seemed that the shop was closed, coz it was easter monday, public holiday..so we went to Roma Parkland instead..it's like a botanical garden..flowers..scenery..playground..took a few photos there.. :)
18th April , Tuesday- We decided to go to Gold Coast @ Surfers Paradise..before going to the beach, we went to Harbourtown, a.k.a shopping paradise!hahah!it was a place where all brands like roxy, billabong, fossil, nike, esprit, and others are sold at much much much cheaper price bcoz they are some sort of a factory -outlet shops!!the gang bought handbags, and shirts..i bought a purse and a fossil watch (and yes, i really needed these two all this while!)..we had Nando's for lunch.. :)
after that, around 3.something we went on to the surfers paradise..this time, i bought a t-shirt ($20+) and a key chain, okay la..it has a gold coast view n Val written behind it.. :p and after that we MANDIII!! hahah!! damn, shuldve worn the purple singlet instead of the orange one! boohoohoo!had to think twice before putting up photos at the beach coz it was oh-so-sexy!*blush*.. hehe...well, had dinner at hungry Jack's after that.. and went back..
19th April- Wednesday- darina and i went to movie world..the gang didnt go with us coz it was in their plans..yeah, so..it was just the two of us, but we had fun, of course!! hehe..when we got ther, it was around 10 plus, and the first place we went in was Wayne's Manor..a Batman theme place.. :D i thought it would be just a sitting kind-of ride, but it was quite fun in the end, coz we had a ride that gave us an experience as if we were in the Bat-mobile/the plane.was fun! ;)

Our next stop was at the Shrek 4D cinema..and it was another great experience for me! Visitors (us) , i think, around 100+ of us are seated in a cinema-like position, with a wide screen in front of us.we had to wear a special set of 4-D specs, and boy did that really help to cause an affect to me!hehe..they showed us a short Shrek movie, something about the ghost of lord (i forgot his name, he's the villain, small n short,remember) trying to kill princess fiona so that she'd become a ghost and be with him, but of course his plan failed coz there were shrek, and donkey, and the dragon..there were a couple of scenes that really affected the audience..one was when donkey sneezed and u actually FELT the goo (the moist) on your face!hahah! and another one was when spiders came out and were crawling in around us!i really screamed at that part,coz i am, after all,phobic towards these creatures!the images seemed sooo real!and u FELT it!hahah!!whatever it was, i really2 enjoyed the show.

After that, we went for Scooby Doo Spooky house..well,we thought that it wasnt going to be much of a thrilling ride, so we just relaxed la in the basket..see see, the first thrill we got was when the basket (luckily there were 4 riders in one basket, an elderly couple were seated in front of us) fell BACKWARDS!!we really screamed at that time..and then, the ride took us to the S-S-S rail..every end of the curve we'd feel like as if the basket wuld FALL of the rail! and darina was screaming on top of her lungs, and my reaction was like afzan's on The Reefs in Dreamworld- out of scream..i just..laughed softly..couldnt..react at all..haha!!!by the end of the ride, darina was spent!hehe..she really looked as if she had a heart attack..kesian her..but as i told her,there's always a first time for everything..

Later on, we went to watch the Police Academy Stunt Show..it was a good one, coz the show was funny as well as..thrilling..all of the actors were stuntmen (duhh!) there were fire elements..and the stunt with the police car and the jeep! fuh!heheh..

after that, i had lunch at the Wild Wild west theme spot..had lamb burger..$7.50 !shish~no choice, was too hungry..hehe..

then, 2.30 pm, we sat by the road side to watch the Parade..this is when all the warner Brother's characters will go on a parade..there were the looney tunes, (bugs bunny n friends), batman, shrek n princess fiona, scooby doo, wonder woman and the gang, zorro, and others..

after that, i went for another ride, which was similar to the Log Ride i had in dreamworld..but this time i went alone, coz darina wouldnt go for any ride after her scooby doo experience!the impact was as the same as dreamworld's log ride, but this one was much higher, but it wasnt as wet as the first one.. :) i bought my picture taken from the theme park's camera for $15..hehe..why not?its MY picture in the rarest pose u'll ever see!hahah!!not only rare, but original panic lagi worr!

after that ride, darina and i went to the Looney Tunes place..that's where we took pictures with Pete le Phew, Sylvester Cat, and the other Looney Tunes characters.. ( i was looking for the pig, but he wasnt there..huhu~)..after that..we hanged around a bit longer..took more pictures around..and by 4plus.. more characters came out around the park, like, marylin manroe, catwoman, batman, austin powers, zorro.. all in all, i had as much fun i had in Movieworld as i had in Dreamworld!! :D

20th April - Thursday- We had a barbeque at South Bank.. we had sausages n bread..some coke and orange and mineral water..o ya, a can of baked beans..but we got so full after that!!hehe...it was another great afternoon with the gang..kinda sad, hani hardly join me for any of the activities..sob..sob..
21st April- Friday- hmm..went to the city, was supposed to WINDOW SHOP only..but i bought TWO quilt covers instead for $30 only!hehehe..it was a ..bit of regret with a huge satisfaction, coz i wasnt supposed to spend any thing that day,but i did,but it was a great deal/price..so..it covers la my regret ..ehehehe.. :p and then..that night..hani cooked laksa.. :D kenyang worr..hehehe..

22nd April- Saturday- got up around 9 plus..Hani was getting ready for the UQ event..and i NEVER intended to go, until leila called at 10 am, and told me that afzan was going and that i should go along too..so i had a 15 mins of shower..and i had to travel to floor 8 (leila's room) for a shirt, and floor 19 (che yam's room) for a skirt and a sandal (which game me a blister on my toe!uwaa..padan my muka,dunno how to wear sandals..ehehe)..

at UQ, it was a meeting with malaysia's high commisioner, and he was giving a speech about the economic development around the world, the richest people etc..which of course, didnt make sense to me at all.. :) what made sense to me was, THE FOOD WAS GREAT.. :D hehe..i took one plate full of beef lasagna, bihun, many more laa..

and i met a couple of orang kampung, orang miri yuuu.. a girl named Laura, who was from Datuk, and she's an Iban too, imagine our surprise! (what a small world!!) .. and another guy called Taki, who was from Kolej..i told him i knew a few ppl from there,n the first name i remembered was nicholas gala.jeez,if only i could say any other name!coz this gala,is like, known to EVERYONE in miri..he can actually be a polititian one day!hahaha! sorry ek nick, guna nama kawu jap dlm blog val. :p so well, this Taki was talking to me in bm sarawak, and YOU KNOw, how "good" my bm sarawak was..and he gave me that "perli"-like look.. uhuu..all in all, i had a good time there as well..to meet laura and taki.. :) and to EAT a LOT! hek hek!

That evening, we went on citycat ferry..this time, Hani followed us :D At first, hani, afzan, che yam and I were standing in front..to get the good view..and leila and darina were sitting down..then, che yam sat down..then..when it got a bit cold..afzan and i took our seats..and hani stayed a bit longer till she got really cold..hehe..it was a great experience as well, to be on the ferry at night, watching the city's view for the last time..and i suddenly realized that i might never experience this again.. huhu.. it wuld b one of the beautiful experiences in my life.. :)
after citycat ride, we went to have pancakes at the Pancakes House.. i had hot troffle and shared wedges with darina..n yes, i got soo full.. :p hehehe..went back to Hani's room and slept..

23rd April- Sunday- went to Wesley's Uniting church, at Roma Parkland at 8.30 am..the service was a bit similiar to my home church..it was ok.err..most of the goers were..elders, of course..eheh..then decided to meet Jody at broadway food court..had a vege roll and watermelon zen (boost)..talked bout studies..and some other stuff with Jody.. glad that i could meet her at last in aus!hehe!

later that afternoon we headed to brisbane central station, (o ya..before that, i had a two lunches! in leila's room, and another one in che yam's room!kenyang giler woorr..) and hani cooked ayam kurma and nasi minyak for us..!! it was my dinner in the train..thank u hani!!hehe~~!!

it was a bit of a sad moment when we had to say goodbye (it always is!) to hani, che yam, and leila..coz we really had great fun during our stay in brisbane.. we took a bus from brisbane central to grafton (where i bought my quarter pounder and nuggets)..and from there the train took us to sydney..

24th April- Monday- here i am, in Macquarie's library..arrived at 7.30 am this morning..had a better sleep than we had when we were going to brisbane.. ;) unpacked my bags..and slept for an hour or so under my new quilt cover..then decided to go to the library to upload some pictures for home and friends.. i guess that's it for now..my long, long report on my trip to Queensland, Brisbane.. Cheers!
p/s: pictures can be viewed at: http://lostellyienz.multiply.com/photos/album/2

-from my friendster blog, April 24, 2006.

What i think they mean.. :)

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Current Fav Songs..

ungu - demi waktu
aku yang tak pernah bisa lupakan dirinya
yang kini hadir diantara kita
namun ku juga takkan bisa menepis bayangmu
yang slama ini temani hidupku

reff:maafkan aku
menduakan cintamu
berat rasa hatiku
tinggalkan dirinya
dan demi waktu
yang bergulir disampingmu
maafkanlah diriku
sepenuh hatimu
seandainya bila kubisa memilih

kalau saja waktu itu ku tak jumpa dirinya
mungkin semua takkan seperti ini
dirimu dan dirinya kini ada dihatiku
membawa aku dalam kehancuran

>>n this is sort of the..continuation.. ;)

Kenangan Terindah-by Samsons
aku yang lemah tanpamu
aku yang rentan karena
cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
yang mampu menyanjungku
selama mata terbuka
sampai jantung tak berdetak
selama itu pun aku mampu tuk mengenangmu
darimu, kutemukan hidupku
bagiku, kau lah cinta sejati
bila yang tertulis untukku
adalah yang terbaik untukmu
kan kujadikan kau kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku
namun takkan mudah bagiku
meninggalkan jejak hidupku
yang telah terukir abadi
sebagai kenangan yang terindah

............................

in our lives, we will meet new people along our way..we thought we've met "the one", but what happens when we meet someone else much much..different..and more.."ngam"? <<>
feelings..are always blamed when things go wrong..n we fail to remember that it is US who's at fault..we're supposed to control our feelings, not the other way round.then again, we are..humans.we make mistakes.all the time.
"undur diri"..love is..sacrifice. :) love hurts as well..but it's the remedy for that hurt at the same time..but as the saying goes,"better to be loved and lost than not being able to love at all". :D some things, are just not meant for us..Pray to God,for He will ALWAYS be there for you..to help you.. ;)
"kenangan terindah-samsons"- when everything's lost and gone..remember,everything happens for a reason..there's a reason for the "meetings" we had in our lives..;) whatever it was in the past,were not only experiences, but memories as well.
memories..gives meaning to our lives. both painful & sweet.. :D It is God's blessing to us,to fill our lives with joy,sadness,compassion,faithfulness..and everything else.. :)
sometimes, the most painful memories are the sweetest? :)

Something i havent done for a very long time..

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DeepfromMyHeart..just 4 u..

Such a short time,
Yet such a great time,
I’ve spent with you,
I hope u thought so too..

Such a great feeling,
One that I can’t explain,
But this feeling I’m having,
Is nothing more but great pain..

For I’ve made a mistake,
I wished I didn’t make,
But I guess just it’s too late,
Perhaps I should just wait..

I’m sorry once again,
And it’s more than just words
I really want to see u again,
A bit too much that it hurts..

So now this is what I do,
From me and it’s just for you,
A BIG SORRY for you,
A hug I’ve that owed you,
A kiss I’ve missed from you,
And these words to say “I miss You”..

-from my friendster blog, April 10, 2006.

Hillsong's Powerhouse

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this is one of my posts in my friendster blog..i decided to copy-paste this one coz it's one of my favourite posts (heck,all of them are my favs,i just chose this coz...just coz!)

Powerhouse
Powerhouse is a congregation that's part of Hillsong which involves most university students, n is held every Friday night at Bulkam Hills..err..not sure if thats the exact spelling, but i remember it sounds something like that..i joined it once last year,but then i still quite.."not into it"..but this year i've never missed it once.yet.eheh,not that i intend to..in fact, i hope i will never miss any of the Fridays..its a really great way to worship God, reading and understanding His words, meeting new people, releasing stress after a week of oh-so-routine-ous student life.. :) the songs are one thing, not only loud, great music, and touching lyrics too..

THE Song.
there's one song (dunno the title), and its chorus was (n its my favourite part!!)
"Saviour,
He can move the mountains,
My God is mighty to save, He is Mighty to Save,
Forever,
Author of Salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.."

Touched.
-i never quite paid attention to the first part of the song all this while, but yesterday, when i really said it, n understood the whole song, i dont know why, but i really felt..touched.i almost cried.the first part was saying something about everyone needs compassion, forgiveness..to leave the past, and follow Him, to give oneself to serve Him..i just felt as if the song was giving a message to ME,bcoz the lyrics has so much to do with my..life..over the years (chewaahh..),i've sinned so many times, that i thought i could never change,n that there's no way i could..but now,i just feel so.."new"..i used to make fuss over small things, i make people (friends n family) angry/sad, i was a disappointment to those close to me, i never forgive those who'd hurt me, n i never apologized to those i've hurt..i was stubborn and vengeful..
People say, "there's a reason for things to happen"..last year, i kept on asking myself, "why am I here (sydney)?"- today, i can answer that question.i'm here to know God.to love Him, and to serve Him.. :) to answer His call..i've grown more matured, changed in a way that i can feel it myself..not perfect,i am,after all,still human..but i feel more love, more..patience, more forgiveness, more understanding around me..i dont feel lost, coz i know,if i ever do,i'll just pray to God, talk to Him, ask for His guidance, and leave everything in His hands..and it works, coz i've done this, n will keep on doing it.. :)

Just to end this entry
hehe..wish i have something "catchy" to say/write/type to end this entry..but i have none at the moment (n i've been sneezing non-stop this whole morning!!-flu alert!!)..Thank You God, for this life that u gave me..Thank You Mum, Dad, brother, for the love u've showered me with..THank You friends ( u know who u are..) for the patience, and trust we've shared all these years..

-posted in friendster blog on March 25, 2006. ;)

Welcome to My Realm!

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hye..! welcome to my realm/blog...errr..am not really sure how this will go..but if it seems alrite n is working, i thank you for visiting my plain n simple blog yeah!hehe..still havent figured how to add the shoutbox..still learning..-_-" ..ehuehue..neways,if u've got nothin else better to do,just read up my blogs n do drop a comment (or more..)hehehe!Have a nice day,n God Bless!